Towards Oblivion

Arriving upon this mountain top, laying bare a joyous world
I gaze toward blue skies, above a blanket of white snow
Contemplating the struggles of my self inflected wombs
Breathing deeply I wonder about what lies beyond the shadows

Thinking how to survive on this road towards oblivion
I ponder of the path I'll take in the wake of life's embrace
A solitary mountaineer I've been half my life
Climbed so many mountains it would take one's breath away

Seen the majesty of God's labors from vistas no one would believe
I've prayed atop the highest peaks, for the help he gives for free
I've never felt more at peace, until the final crest is reached
This helps to heal the problems faced, from a place below my feet

So in the shorten time I spend upon this steeply rim
I'll confess my sins as I watch the sun slowly fade into the sea
From this contrast of snow and sky dictated the road I'll take
This helps me relate as I prepare for my descend

I've come to realize the ways of life are ours alone to make
So in these words you read my friends I give you this advice
No need to climb mountains to find your way in life
Just open up your soul, and purge your hurtful sins

For when you walk into his heart
You'll know just how I feel
Your life will never be the same
As you ascend towards his grace

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
December 14, 2008

Christmas Eve on p2s

Dedicated: Janet Hampson

I had a dream the other night
About poetry2share
I dreamt I was a member
With friends around the globe
It was the eve of Christmas
Not having much to do
Decided to surf the Internet
To share a thought or to
I clicked on my favorite
To see who might be browsing
I looked for fellow members
Who frequent this poetry site
No Claude from the west coast
Who offers such sound advice
No Delta Blue from Dallas
To show the ills of war
Not even rider 1951
What poems he can write
Much too my amazement
Only puddles was online
So I thought just wait awhile
Maybe someone from England
Will pop in to say hello
After all it's Christmas Eve
They can't be all at balls
Maybe Doreen will appear
To share her uplifting prose
Or John will bring another fine piece
From memories of his past
Could Mystic be not far behind
With bells to chime a song
Come on Alan, dock your boat
Bring some posts for us to read
A portrait of words
From a lady who paints
Would place my mind at ease
No Vic or even a Silverlining
To share this site with me
So I'll take this time to say
To the poets I failed to mention
Remember this is just a dream
I mean no disrespect
So I'll convey these words to you
Before I bid adieu
Merry Christmas to all
To all a good night
From this poet in Texas
Who's in love with this site

Merry Christmas & Happy New Year
Fellow members
Puddles signing off

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
December 17, 2008

Kindred Spirit

Lost within the fading years
In the bleakness of the cold
Between the sorrows of my fears
Reside sad memories which I hold

Amid the solace of being alone
Inflamed by long hidden thoughts
Buried deep within my bones
Is the hurt engraved by so many faults?

I seek a solution to this query
To sanctify what I've refused to believe
Turning my sadness to something merry
A kindred spirit to take the lead

It is possible there's a higher power?
Beyond the stars in the swiftness of the fires
A God we call by name who gives us cover
From the harm caused by our reckless desires

In the unsanctified wonders of this world
I seek the intangible to explain the unreasonable
From the madness found from this elusive swirl
Creating a saving grace making us impregnable

By our transgressions he commits us to his fold
So I'll submit to all which I'm unable to see
To soothe my inner being to calm my outer soul
In hope I'm forgiving so my heart will be set free

I know not of the day or night
When I'll reach the divining end
Will ride the dark towards the light
Seeking the kindred spirit to cleanse me of my sins?

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
December 11, 2008

Bygone Days

Evil seeks the quickest way
To pierce a parting heart
When love turns to cinder
To all we did impart

Between two lost lovers
We look to find our way
Back to what we held
Forged from bygone days

Odd the way wickedness
Can work into one's life
Turning feelings sour
Making a loveless wife

I as your husband
Share half the blame
Should have seen it coming
Did nothing to stop the shame

Could it been done different
With smiles instead of jeers
Creating a different destiny
Without the fears and tears

Now we part, nothing left
To keep and hold together
As we take our separate roads
In search of something better

So I'll bid farewell to you
As I watch you disappear
Wishing the best comes your way
To what will soon appear

Fading into the silence
We'll hold our memories
Remembering what was lost
From a time so unforgiving

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
December 4, 2008

A Dark Boding Place

In Memory Simon Ruiz (1922-1997) Diagnosed with prostate cancer November, 1996 Died April, 1997 

 

 There is a dark boding place Lying deep within our minds It holds the truth of lost despair 

This comes when we're sublime In youth there are no worries We're here to live a life Nevertheless time forges into a title Known by the name called strife One will always know When youth has mislaid its gleam As we age upon highways Filled with sad forgotten dreams These are the ramblings of a man Who remembers another's fate His wisdom shall go unanswered Only cries are heard, for in the winds they fade So I'll keep within my heart The tenderness I'll always miss Thanking him from the silence Of my nightly bliss But my life is not quite over I've seen the glinting mask of death Walked away with just a scare And a much keener inner faith Thank you Dad for reminding me There's more to life than what is taught Death is not the true finality Just the beginning of future thoughts Written by: Roland R. Ruiz November 24, 2008

A Child’s Prayer

The time has come my little one
To show you how to pray
You're four years old
My, the days have flown

Gosh, you've really grown
It's best to get you started
So listen very closely
To all I have to say

Look towards the open window
Above the sky between the stars
Lies the home our Father built
Where all our prayers are sent

There's a house all ready and waiting
For each of us when it's time for us to leave
But for know my dear don't worry
Just learn to speak to God

Let the words flow from your heart
For he knows you very well
Tell him how much you love him
For the life he's given you

Ask him to protect you always
When you sleep into the night
Ask for his forgiveness
When you forget to call his name

But most of all remember
He's always their for you
So in the closing of your prayer
Ask God to bless us all

Especially Mommy and Daddy
Who keeps you warm with love
For our thoughts for you will never leave
As you walk into your life

If you do this every night
In your prayers to God above
His love for you will only grow
Each moment of the day

So now you've learned just how to pray
It's your heart he listens too
Until he calls you home
To the house he's built for you

Remember what I taught you
It's meant for you alone
Until God gives you a child
You'll teach to pray with love

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
October 27, 2008

Written Dreams

Dedicated: Poetry2Share

From my wayward travels
As time follows a precious path
You touch my heart with your caring thoughts
In the looks you turn my way

The rainbow that carries our hopes and prayers
Becomes stronger each second of the day
This helps renew the beauty of the arch?
Which stretches between our souls, across this wide divide?

While the ebb and flow of friendships developed
In our march thru life's embrace
Reminds me of the gifts received
By the power from a higher place

To those who shares this special treasure
I send my best your way
May you live a lifetime, filled with love
For the many words shared, in our earthly stay

May God bless all who make Poetry2Share
A very exceptional website
Where our hearts are turned to tears
When we post our written dreams

Written by Roland R. Ruiz
July' 2006

Whispers in the Wind

I hear whispers in the wind, which beats to the music of forgotten dreams
Like subdued echoes from a lonely past, alluring, yet without means

Forging together what once was one, we tread the turbulent waters
Wishing our frail shape, with multiple cracks, will hold together not falter

But time will be the tormentor of what once we held as hope
Bringing another factor called change, between the ridges and the slopes

Funny how love can float beyond the realm of delayed commotions
Like a floundering ship, filled with lost connections and empty emotions

We respond as one would think, realizing in the blink of an eye
Of the love we once held, it's their to be found, in the twilight of the sky

For all these many years together, should not be all for naught
Let's work together, in bringing a close, to our wayward faults

For in the whispers of the wind, can bring solace to one's hearts
If we listen very carefully to the harmony, it imparts

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
October 23, 2008

The Spider's Leer

Like a spider which weaves a web
To catch a prey to nourish
I lay besides you, in search of dreams
To calm the tension, which flourish?

Depression seems to follow me
On the fast lanes of life's embrace
Locked within a cage, I feel forgotten concerns so tightly encased
Imprisoned without a key I search for a way to escape

Remembering the sweet times we've shared together
Brings my frail sanity, to a near normal state
Fearing the worst I pray for a miracle to happen
For losing you will be the end, is this to be my fate

I've thought of what might be done
To life this yoke and spare the heavy burden
One bullet from a chamber would cure all my ills
Ceasing the pain turning the tide, sadly closing the curtain

But this is not the way to go, for their must be another solution
For I shall not become the prey, of the spider's leer
Faith shall lead me back again to the fold of your loving arms
Where we shall live as never before, as we shout with joyful cheer

From this tangle mesh in the weave we have sewn
Will deter us from becoming the prey to the creatures of the night
For the love which was lost from within our hearts will soon be released
Igniting a flaming passion once again, in a web of sheer delight

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
October 4, 2008

Troubled Borders

Towards the troubled borders of never ending schemes
Lies the failed and fractured failures of unrelenting dreams

It's seen in the pretense of lies so well told from the tenures of longevity
By the ones who time after time we elect, to guide our nation's sovereignty

From the branches of the government we hear only their faltered fears
They talk so smooth, between their guile they make us forget our tears

All the while we're lead to believe there's hope within their charm
But don't be fooled, if they cared they would vote to end the harm

Now we're about the make a choice, in the election of a leader with new desires
Will we elect the veteran who served his country with honor, in his time under fire?

He comes with much experience in the years he has served
Or will our nation choose a youthful man, will he be able to turn the curb

We who live in the United States have a dilemma in the coming days
In deciding to whom to give our vote it's a price we must pay

We'll set the course for the coming years, when we leave that ballot box
For a new President to steer us straight, he'll need to be smart as a fox

So pray with me, for those of you who live beyond the sea
To what befalls us in November, will leave a lasting effect

You'll feel and clearly see

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
October 11, 2008

Fantasy of Fate

Between the shelters of reality, inside the fantasy we call fate
Lies the essence of all dreams, beyond the shadows of the gate

Like leaves tumbling from their branches amid the currents of the air
Shows the changing of the seasons as fall begins to flare

Life can be compared to what is shared in time's embrace
For nothing last forever, as our youth begins to race

Faster, faster then one can imagine, lines are formed upon our face
This comes in the way we live on highways we all chase

Life is short enough, why speed to the end of the road
As I watch from my window the coming season change my mode

In my trek across the destiny created by my fate

I’ve come to understand, thank God it’s not too late

So like the leaves which whirl around, onto the moisten ground
I'll use the years and days which are left, in my hope to be profound

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
October 07, 2008

Weeping Tears

Within the days lies the hours
Within the hours lies the minutes

Within the minutes lies the seconds
Of all the trials and errors we've taken to the limits

For strife exists as transience in the universe of life
Amid the entanglements and desires, when we became man and wife

So I ask can weeping tears be gathered into the palm of one's hands
Much as the dew adorns the grass between the shifting sands

Can one roll back memories which were lost along the way?
Will our lives be spoiled by the amoral decadence of decay?

I hear a distance drummer in the beat of a somber tune
This comes in the dreams I have beneath the waxing moon

It tolls of what has been and what can be again
If only we could find the goodness which lies beyond our sins

Bringing a collective feeling of happiness once shared within our past
When we were young and foolish thinking forever it would last

So pray with me my beloved it's not to late to mend
For the love we've lost and what we seek

Lies just around the bend

Written by Roland R. Ruiz
September 28, 2008

Unforgiving Realm

Into the surge of an unforgiving realm, we sail towards a goal

Upon an ocean so strange, surreal atop waves so icy cold

On a whaler named Bejeweled, we pray no harm comes our way
As we pass between the narrows, lining the coast of St. John's Bay

Our captain laid course, by the shimmering stars, so many to even confront
While the sails are filled by the billowing winds from a late October front

The tasks engrossing our mind is to catch the majestic whale
For the price of oil is worth the risk, as we ride to the sounds of the gale

Glittering above resides the Northern Lights giving our ship a ghostly hue
In our trek for the behemoths awaiting their fate, having no earthly clue

On the fifth morning out, cries are heard from the lookout, "their she blows"
Whaleboats readied with oars, harpoons, sailors cast off, in the wake of an angry flow

Rowing as never before we race to catch the beast, to match his rhythmic movements
In the blink of an eye blood spurts high, from the sharpness of the blades, all in a matter of moments

As I sit with my shipmates and view this ponderous monster, upon the cresting swells
I hear the slowness in his breath, see the glossy eyes turn upwards, as if in a magical spell

Soon he dies, remorse sets in, to the quietness from the lull
Then the hard work slowly begins, to fill our empty hulls

Written by Roland R. Ruiz
August 23, 2008

Fractured Dreams

Dedicated: Rachel Kohn

In-between the fractured dreams
Lie all the hopeless schemes
Of the unruly desires created by
The fall of so many extremes

In the silence of the dark
They awake me to what I've done
From the very ones who tried with tears
To give me all their love

This underscores a broken life
Leaving me unable to control my wayward soul
From insane ideas forged by youthful thoughts
From one so brazen and cold

As I approach the sunset of life
An expression of emptiness I feel
For the promises I could not keep
For the failures I've kept sealed

While the stillness of the night
Wakes me to the blindness of the day
I seek forgiveness from the errors
Committed by the judgment of my ways

So I'll ask with sadden heart
In the one who feels my pain
To heal the hurt, clean the heart
Of the sins which still remain

For when I reach the end
Of the long winding road we've shared
I want to be able to softly touch
Caressing the ones who cared

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
August 10, 2008

Life's Embrace

Romance is like a chameleon
Can be displayed in many ways

Concealing itself so well
Hard to tell, when love has come to stay

For love is like a fleeting dart
As it hurls through life's embrace

It knows when a target is found
Will commence to slow its pace

Once the sharpness of the point
Cuts into one's heart

The cry for pains of loneliness
Begins to slowly fall apart

Thinking you shall walk alone
On a road without a care

Think not of empty thoughts
A soul mate will come to share

So beware of the hurling dart
As it flies through the air

It's meant to end one's lonely soul
As it seeks a set to pair

Written by Roland R. Ruiz
August 13, 2008

Point of No Return

From the values of life, we all try so hard to learn
There comes to us along the trail, a point of no return

A place of calm unknown by us, which helps to light the way
Along the dusty tracks of time, towards what we must pay

Between the fallen years, lies the destiny of our past
On a road predestined for us to choose or pass

For in the very fiber of our being, obstacles shall we face
Like playing tantalizing games, driving us to disgrace

Known as luck, karma, premonition, names which I recall
But all in all just a slight of hand, to make us take a fall

For faith is the hunter which steers the ship we share
Through the darkness of the fog we'll sail from despair

This helps to steady our course, on a sea of wispy murk
Bringing the release once feared leading to a cautious lurk

Not all will hear the foghorn, which sounds to show the way
But for those who do rest assured, that life will come to stay

For once we've reached the point, where time knows no end
Then we'll know the true serenity, from the loss of total sin

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
August 6, 2008

Last Stairway

Have you ever been truly alone?
Without a love to share your home
Not even a reason to justify
The loneliness in one's life

There lies inside dreams
Buried deep within the night
Collections of thoughts from long ago
Which brings so much delight?

With only a tinge of tangled sadness
To complete this cycle of strife
Memories roll back to me
Like waves upon a sea

But overall cannot complain
In my travels towards the light
Which luck did grant my youthful soul?
When on that busy byway we merged

Converging on an ocean of oblivion
Our hearts did touch, we smiled
Opening a channel of love
Which led to a beautiful child?

In the finality of total commitment
We'll hold each other hands
As we seek the final horizon
In our search for the promise land

Together we'll pray for grace
To penetrate our souls
With the hope of remaining a set
In the infinity created by love

Crossing the last stairway
We'll cherish what we have known
Together we shall walk
Into the enchantment of total bliss

As we enter the end of our rainbow
Where we'll live forevermore

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
July 18, 2008

God's Domain

I the God of my domain
I have come to free your pain
All that I do ask of you
Is to feel my love

This is what I'll grant to you
Come and take my willing hand
No more sorrow will come your way
For my Son has paid

Here I am Lord, set me free Lord
I accept the gift you grant so graciously
I am yours Lord, just forgive me
Clean the sin which lies within my heart

Now you'll live in paradise
In my golden home above
Filled with Angels and the stars
To guide your way

No more tears will fall your way
Only love will come to stay
This I promise for one and all
Who'll accept my love

I am your Lord, understand Lord
Your Son paid the ransom for all our sins
By your Son Lord, who gave his life Lord
In return we'll receive eternal grace

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
July 28, 2008

Broken Yesterdays

If only we could go back in time, and change our yesterdays
What bliss we would again enjoy, as we kiss the storms away

If only we could transposed what was lost beyond the shadows of the dark
Our dreams would match the rainbows painted so vividly, within one's heart

There the beauty of the fantasies gathered, would dance upon the wind
Bringing a special feeling reeling, within the dizziness of our spin

A reminder of what was shared in our hunt for a forgotten path
Engraving a link to wayward memories buried deep inside the past

But time does not stand still my dear, and neither do the storms
As age begins to turn the tides, new thoughts begins to form

Establishing a totally different outlook in the attitudes of life
This brings a disconcerting viewpoint, of what once we knew as strife

In our search for a new horizon, to forget the painful fears
We'll seek a new beginning without the taunts, which caused the tears

So until the broken yesterdays, has released our fleeting faults
We'll remain as distance lovers, lost forever in our thoughts

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
July 11, 2008

Fading Soldiers

IN MEMORY;
General Douglas MacArthur's farewell speech to Congress
April 19, 1951
"old soldiers never die; they just fade away"

There is a gallant creed existing
Which grow smaller by the day?
They're the soldiers, men and women
Who gave so much our way?

In the service of their country
From lands so foreign and strange
They did what was needed
To save us from tyranny

No matter what the cost
No matter what the lost
In the many battlefields inflicted
Far across the raging seas

The sacrifice they made
Has often been forgotten
What we now enjoy today
Comes from the valor of their deeds

For all these brazen soldiers
Who displayed such bravery?
Remember them for what they gave
As they are laid to eternal rest

They paid dearly in their struggle
For the liberty we now possess
So take a small amount of time
In a prayer for what they did

Remember them with peace and love
As they take their final breath
I'm honored to pay them homage
For the gallantry they displayed

May God bless these aging warriors?
They will never be forgotten
For they gave their very best
For old soldiers never die

They just simply fade away

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
July 8, 2008

The Gift

I'm here to convey the memories from a long forgotten past
To share a gift which was given and lost from the kindness of a man

Arriving within the spirals in the pattern of my thoughts
Like the twilight bending a rainbow, which enlightens the luster of the breaking sun

Such wisdom he imparted to the children he loved so much
He tried to carve these sentiments to those who felt the strain

A man few remembered, for when he died no one wept
He left a void so empty, unfilled in the loneliness of his life

From the dreams lies his substance in the fantasies of my sleep
It all comes back in the remembrance of what he tried to give

As I approach the shadows in the autumn of my years
The words that I recall I now begin to feel

In the solace of the morning time, peace awakes my heart
A reminder of what was lost and now is found again

So I'll take to my grave all he did impart, in the wisdom he displayed
The epitaph which he left behind, will endear this precious gift

He may have died alone without tears to bid farewell
But he will be remembered for I have become a better man

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
July 1, 2008

Distant Drummer

Dedicated: Those who hear the music..........

I hear a distant drummer in the beat of a somber tune
Which came in the lyrics of life, since birth it's played a song

Across a wooden bridge, came a gift given to me
Arriving when I least expected, from one so high above

It shares a spot so deep inside the rapture of my being
As if it's been a part of me, only now I begin to feel

For I've tasted the sweet desires existing within my dreams
Which resides within a vibrant rainbow, along the waters edge

As I age towards the unknown, there's so much I want to impart
In the imagery which reverts to me, in my remaining days

So I'll share what comes my way, to those who hear the music
Hoping my words brings peace of mind, in the message I wish to convey

To those who are blessed in hearing
The melody vibrating within one's heart

I pray that you will feel the joy
Which has grown deeply between my soul

I'll continue to relay my thoughts to you
Pleading you will do the same

In our travels to find a wooden bridge
And the sounds of a distant drummer

Seeking the one who gave to us, the glory of his love
Along with the gift we share, which brings the saving grace

We'll march to the cadence of a happy tune
Inside his royal palace, forever and evermore

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
June 21, 2008

Unimaginable

Beyond the cosmos of the known galaxies
In the universe we call home

Lies the miracle by the hands of God
In the gift he gives to all

We feel this in every breath we take
From the treasure we call life

We see this in every vista
As the sun moves across the sky

From the glorious splendor of his love
He grants to each of us

Only foreshadows what's in store
To those who truly believe

In the world he created
By his everlasting love

Bought by the death of his begotten son
So our hearts could be cleansed of sin

Thus bestowing the miracle of salvation
Which awaits his flock, beyond the waning stars?

Where the heavenly Father and the Son
Will rule upon their throne

To reign the unimaginable, forever
In a palace we pray will be our home

Is all we can ask for, all we can imagine?
Surrounded by his glory, in his kingdom forevermore

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
March 28, 2008

The Spiral

Within the shadow of the years
Looms the memories of all my fears

Which come in the dreams I have each night?
Leaving me unable to resist the futile attempts to slight

As I fall into the circle of unrelenting love
I hope of finding a way to convey an impression of

The many battles inflected, in the indifference of a cause
Culminating in what was won and lost, in a whirlwind of applause

So in the fantasies we have shared, we'll adjust for separate ways
Which will lead to a new horizon as we leave our yesterdays?

In this parting thought, I will entrust before I go
I ask for your forgiveness for the feelings I could not show

And if you have within you a moment to reflect
Remember all we totaled in the time we did connect

For this shall live beyond us in the blood line we did create
Our daughters will always love us, no matter what the fate

As we come to an end of a spiral, we'll say our final goodbyes
Turning towards a new beginning, in the windmill of our minds

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
June 1, 2008

Wings of Dove

There is a canyon of no regret, which exists within ourselves

It takes affect when problems occur, between our drifting shell

Thus creating a vacuum of despair, which dwells inside our hearts?
Which comes in wayward thoughts, when we think its time to part

Tasting the memories of that first kiss, in a match from heaven above
Is worth the effort to sort this out, to save our fading love

Often time is what we need to soothe our painful hurts
Bringing a type of healing, to erase the lasting marks

So please help me find the pieces, we’ve lost along the way
To rebound to the way it used to be, in the remaining days

For we have known the feelings of unrelenting love
It awaits for us to find again, between the wings of doves

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
May 23, 2008

Mortal Fears

Can a river of deception be a prelude to a dream?
As we sleep with eyes wide open, hoping it's not a scheme

Wishing to catch a glimmer, from the brilliance of your eyes
I lean to kiss your moisten lips, as the moon begins to rise

In the twilight of the dew, lies sweet memories I hold for you
Which becalms a restless heart, of a stranger I once knew?

We've shared so much together, in the volume of our years
I feel as if our love has grown, beyond our mortal fears

For in the time God grants to us, I'll make this solemn oath
To cherish each second given, for the thoughts you hold so close

So take my hand, hold me tight, and never look behind
For the destiny of the new eternity, is there for us to find

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
May 14, 2008

Gathering Storms

Can the sultry taste of a passionate kiss be measured within our dreams?
Could the lasting memories, of years past, slip between the seams?

Will the gathering storms, heard so clear, be just a passing lark
Is it the wish of what once was felt, that drives us further apart

I fear that all we've come to know, will soon be an afterthought
While the richness of all we dwelled upon becomes a fleeting haunt

I want so much for love, to be caressed into our hearts
To feel refreshed, with only thoughts to never think to part

So in the desires I'll share with you, I'll do what must be done
In seeking the passion which has been lost, between the setting sun?

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
May 12, 2008

Fleeting Glance

Is there a signal, which signifies?
When love has taken flight

Does it come ever so quietly?
Like a thief into the night

Can one feel the pain of the passing darts?
As they rip and tear into a fickle heart

Does the rhythmic flow of an enticing dance
Reflect in the hurtful larks, of a fleeting glance

Will we survive another day, or will our fate go astray
I feel all this and more, as time silently slips away

I've often wondered if love can be made eternal
Or is it a passing phase, centering around a hardened kernel

I fear the love once shared, between embracing souls
Has encased itself into a shadowy void, completely out of control

So I'll take my leave, bid farewell, wishing only the best
Hoping we'll find another's love, to lay this hurt to rest

As we instill our weeping memories deep within our hearts
We'll watch the changing patterns fade into the dark

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
May 1, 2008

Rhythmic Patterns

I hear the sound of raindrops

Pelting against the window pane

As I turn towards the rainy night
from the softness of my bed

They come in rhythmic patterns
To stir the sentiments in me

As I search for the lost nostalgia
Buried deep within my dreams

Of songs which sing sweet melodies
For a long forgotten past

In a mood, so much somber
Then what is exists today

Where time moved very slowly
Across the golden path

I relish, what once I knew
For it shall never be again

From the shadows of my yesterdays
Which engulfs my very soul

I’ve learned it’s a part of me
In accepting what I’ve come to know

So in the destiny, which is now my home
I’ll remember the ideals of a simple time

In the dreams that are yet to follow
On a road I’ve come to know

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
April 17, 2008

Worthy Stanzas

Dedicated: Poetry2Share

To touch the stars with worthy stanzas
Is what every poet thrives to do

I've come to realize this and more
Since joining a poetry site, far across the sea

Every so often stored deep within our dreams
Sparks are ignited by our wondering thoughts

Which turns the vivid shadows, of the darkness
Into a blazing light, that flashes across the sky

Thus causing such joy, to those who care to read
The words of enchantment which calms a enduring heart

To those who write such phrases, I have this to convey
It's a pleasure for me to be able to say

How proud I am to be a member of poetry2share
Which shines so brightly with talented writers

Who touch the stars with each syllable
In the rhymes created, from the substance of their souls

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
April 25, 2008

Forgotten Tragedies

In Memory: Nameless faces & Old Soldiers

Can a soldier be forgiven, for the death which comes his way?
Can the savagery of his nature, be tamed to some degree

Can the horrors one sees in war, be a figment of a dream
Or does it go on enticing one's soul, in the bitterness one displays

Thus creating a shadow of despair, in the hallows of an empty heart
Compounding the memories of forgotten tragedies, one tries so hard to ignore


Even after forty years, the pain remains so clear
I see the faces of the nameless, I recall their tearful gaze

They come in the middle of my night, no pity can I expect
In a fantasy of a cause, I still don't understand

For the souls of those who perished, in a jungle of no regret
Leaves an empty feeling, I would rather soon forget

So my life will continue onwards
Nothing I can do, to exempt the wrongful sins

But pray for God and those nameless faces
To release this pain from me

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
April 08, 2008

Author's Note:
40th Anniversary of the My lai Massacre
3-16-68

Tracks of Time

Along the dusty tracks of time

Lurks the memories of forgotten lore
It comes in the haunts, of my sleepless nights
A reminder of what was lost, within a restless heart

Awakening to the bitterness, which never seems to fade?
Enlightens the loneliness felt, in the desperate flow of despair
So I'll take whatever comes my way
For the mistakes made in the embrace, we call life

The dreads I've come to know, which has been a part of me
Gives me thought of how it shall end, before the final blow
Wishing I could alter time, so I can start anew
But alas this cannot be, so I'll look to another source

I have come to this conclusion, evil does exists
It surrounds our very nature, tempting us in every way
But if one looks between the darkness
There is a brightness, which lights the day

It lies in the man named Jesus, who died upon the cross
He came to save our souls, if only we believe
Just take his heart within yourself, for you'll never be alone
To feel the richness of his grace is the greatest gift of all

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
April 08, 2008

Roll of The Dice

Laced within the hapless shadow
Which engulfs one's withered soul

Lies the fate of a wayward heart
So listless and out of control

While no virtue exists for the sins
Ingested by the wagers of life

It comes in the roll of the dice
Along with the numbers that follow

Over the years, the eyes of the snake
Has come to be the norm

Which causes so much pain
In the person I've thrived to be

Addiction is not easy to break
No matter how hard one tries

It affects the lives of all around
It's seen in the tears they cry

So whenever I fell the desire
For taking a change on luck

I stir the memories of forgotten harm
I've caused to the those I love

This weakens the corridors of my inner being
As the hurt invades my heart

Reminding me of my selfish ways
As tears stream down my cheeks

I hope that I will not be lost
In the deals and shuffles of life

For the gamble that's made in turning one's life
Can change one's destiny

So I'll pray the good Lord to give me strength
To resist the temptations of sin

Tempering the craving felt deep within
Making me whole again

I trust to be that person, they've longed for
In the love they keep for me

So I can be the man they've needed
To a family in need of one

Not knowing when the bell will toll
This I know for sure

To win a place in the kingdom of heaven
Is a bet worth my soul

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
April 3, 2008

Double Bouquet

In Memory: Of love departed, but not forgotten

Within the shallows of your grave

Their lies a hallowed love

It comes from what once we felt

In the time we shared as one

I’m here to bring you flowers

The kind you always liked

Now there are two, I come to see

For our son lies by your side

It’s been two years, since he left

To a war across the sea

On his return, in a flag draped coffin

We cried unto the night

Now I face another loss

You left me all alone

Again, I cry, but you’re not here

To console my streaming tears

So now, I bring a double bouquet

To lay upon these markers

Remembering the one, we loved and nurtured

I picked these flowers for him

The other my sweet, I place for you

As tears, begin to flow

For the women who was his Mother?

To the Mother, who was my wife?

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz

March 16, 2007

Flames of Passion

On shifting sands of time, in a land so far from home
I lay upon this lonely bunk, remembering my love for you

Ten months into a tour of duty finally a glimmer, has shown its face
Which brings a spark to the darkness, in the hope what lies ahead

It seems a change of orders, has brought a sense of stability
To a country long existing, in the turmoil's of moral decay

Death still stalks but not as often, how I pray for God to cease
As we camp upon this desert, in the heat which bears no shade

Each hour of the day, I think of you as the sun moves across the sky
Waiting until I can hold you tight, taste your lips, embrace you totally

Between now and the time I leave, there's a duty I must uphold
To a nation, knowing only the grief of fear, in the walls which holds their shame

A heavy burden we carry, I feel the tide has begun to change
The prayers I keep within my chest, is for peace to invade our souls

Writing this letter in my tent, I feel the need for sleep affect my tired eyes
The reflections of my thoughts will always be of the love within our hearts

The time will soon be here my sweet, when I'll return to be with you
We'll ignite the flames of passion anew, in the dreams we share as one

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
February 24, 2008

Endless Dream

Upon the wake of an endless dream
Beyond the tangents of space and time

Within the realm of our wretched souls
Lies a void, overfilled with the pain of careless thoughts

Cascading into the loneliness of despair
We tread towards the unknown

Riding the emptiness of fear, in search of what was lost
Hoping to find a common goal, to soothe the lustful wants

So often in life, the road we take, will lead to separate lanes
On a highway covered with memories mislaid, of our shameful ways

So I'll take this time to let you know, how I truly feel
The love we once held so close has gone to someone else

Take heed, my sweet, remember not the broken heart
Which lays bear our shattered dreams?

But think what once we shared
In the time we spent as one

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
March 131, 2008

Jumbled Words

I see pictures in my mind they come when I'm reposed
Bringing jumbled words unrecognized, in the slumber of my dreams

In your fantasies have you ever wondered, how it would be
If rainbows, Angels and moonbeams, shared the night time sky

At first I asked how strange this is, as I wake into the night
Nevertheless, something pulls me to my pen, and words just seem to flow

Its been said the night holds a thousand eyes
Could the stars that glimmer in the evening dusk

Be the cause, the very reason why
I think such marvels as these

In an age we know as the past, sorrows fill our yesterdays
Much as a river, that rounds the bend drifts towards tomorrow

We seek a new beginning, to set our lives anew
Searching to find a destiny, in the hope of what shall be

We'll steer our ship to brighter days, in the time that's left to us
These jumbled words did come to me, just the other night

I thought to share these sites with you, in the dreams that come to me
Where Angels merge from rainbows, in the moonbeams of the night

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
February 15, 2008