Our First Kiss

Dedicated To: Evangeline

As I lay in deep repose, I search my soul, from within my dreams
For the very first time your lips touched mine, in the spring time of our youth

When we were young and just beginning, to share our lives as one
I remember our love as it began to bloom, to flourish as it would

Such thoughts I've kept just for you, in the autumn of my years
The memories of our times together, brings pleasure to my heart

For the shyness was their that very first time, as I reached to touch your face
But I couldn't resist, caressing your lips, so I stole a kiss from you

A lot has happened since that encounter, even after all these years
My love for you has never wavered; it's as stong now, as it was back then
When I stole a kiss from you

But this I'll tell you, my fair sweet love, I've cherished each moment we've lived together
And I look forward to what lies beyond, for I'll know you'll be a part of me, as I will be to you

Even onto the end of time, our love will never die

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
August 29, 2006

Shudder

Dedicated To: Evangeline M. Ruiz

I shudder to think how life would be, if I had not the love you gave to me, so many years ago
How different my life would be right now, if our paths had never crossed

For ever since I've come to know, the flower of my dreams
I think of you as the morning dew, so crystal clear in the love you've given, and to think it all for me

Every waking moment in the years we've been together
Has seen my yearning grow by leaps and bounds, and the joy never seems to end

You Evangeline, has shared with me, a very special gift, which comes from God, so high above, he meant for us to be
Together we have forged a devotion, which shall last the test of time

As we trek within our hour glass, be assured of what I say
I hold you in my heart and soul, in all you've been to me

Now love, the time has come to tell you of my deep and inner thoughts
For you've made my very existence, so blissful
In the years, we've shared as one

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
August 26, 2006

Shadow of My Dreams

Dedicated To: Tony Taylor

Have you ever seen moving echoes, which flash within your dreams?
They come in the twilight of the night, while you lay asleep, with imagines of days gone by

I have many visions within my mind, some good, and some bad
Even dreaded nightmares, to scare a chill in me

But the ones that I remember most, are those who have gone their way
So many love ones, I've come to know, as I trek towards
the finality of life, as slow as one can go

Mom and Dad, Grandfather, and Grandmother top the list, with many more beneath
Aunts, Uncles, cousins, and friends, I've been privileged to know
In my travels towards the end

They come at night, not all the time, but when they do, tears cascade, down my cheeks, as I lay in deep repose

It makes one wonder of growing old, and how you'll meet your fate
For when my time arrives, and my dreams cease to be

Then I'll become an echo, flashing brightly
As I join my righteous friends, in the shadow of my dreams

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
August 24, 2006

Divine Power

Dedicated To: Joseph Borrego

Have you ever been on a highway, leading to a place filled with promise and hope?
Where you feel, within yourself, you've been down this road before
My thoughts have often crossed like this, in the open doors of life

There is a medium of the divine power, which resides in all of us
As we travel along the path of time, towards our destiny

The faint glimmer of despair, lies bare all our travesties
In our march forward, seeking to find the goodness that lies within our souls

For me I'll know, what my fortune will bring, as I trek towards the end
I pray that I shall greet my fate, with grace and dignity
The medium of the divine power, is God, for no other can take his place

So I'll walk towards his only Son, the one who died to set us free
Thru his divinity, I'll repent my sins, which have followed along with me

And the road I've traveled, will lead not to an end
But a new beginning, which shall last for the rest of eternity

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
August 20, 2006

Solitude of Loneliness

Dedicated To: Jonathan Ruben Gonzalez

As I walk beside this solitude of loneliness

Which seems to reside in me

I feel the pull of fate, tugging against the emptiness of despair

That lies deep, within my soul

I wonder where it shall lead, in my trek thru troubled times

When I reach the end, will life go on, or will it be like an afterthought

And fade into the wind

Without reason or answers, and running on empty thoughts, is that what waits for me?

I feel a part is missing, within my tortured being

Could this be just a wishful vision, I keep inside myself

I search for something different to soothe my aching heart

For love was never given, in my travel thru life's embrace

I never knew my Father, and my Mother orphaned me

Into this world, I grew alone

Without a parent's love, to guide or cherish me, towards my earthly strife

Now I search for love, to fill the void of nothingness, which has merged inside my core

Is it too late, can I survive, or will the end be just a dream?

I ask dear God to give me solace, and receive my heart into his grace

For then I'll know just how to love, like I've never known before

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz

August 18, 2006

A Sinner's Dream

Dedicated To: Simon Ruben Borrego

As I ponder thru the slumber of the dreams which I recall
I hear my fate approaching softly, in the caverns of the sky

It speaks of sins committed, in my trek thru troubled times
And whispers repentance is needed, to reach eternal life

The choices are free and mine to make, the keys to salvation lies in front of me
So simple and easy, I would think, why do I hesitate?
Will God forgive all my transgressions, I've made along the way?

His Son, gave up his life for me, I need to remember this
I'll ask him for forgiveness, from a heart that's filled with sin
And after my confession, he'll open the gates for me

With passion, radiating from the glory of his eyes
And tears cascading down my cheeks, for the yoke of sin been lifted, by the one who died for me

We'll walk into his kingdom, for he washed my soul and healed my pain and made me like the driven snow
For all that I had been before, will be a passing thought

As I enter into his golden orb, to a room reserved for me
I'll find his love will last forever, in the house his Father built

Here abounds such lasting peace, I've looked for all my life
In this palace, which will be my home, for all eternity

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
August 11, 2006

A Daddy, Remembered

Dedicated To: Simon Ruiz (1-1-22) (4-4-98)

The other day, as I had nothing to do, I looked out from my window pane
Wishing for raindrops to begin their fall, from the cumulus clouds stretching across the wide open sky, in the middle of the day

I began to think of growing old, and all the faded years, that seemed to have passed me by
I started to think of how it will be, when my time reaches its end
And wondering how close death is, from knocking on my back door

I began to think of my life, and all the memories I've made in my travels toward the fate, that lies ahead of me
The good, the bad, the in between, but most of all the past
Memory of my Daddy came gushing forth, from the hallows of my mind
The last twelve months before he died, became vividly clear, in the shadows of my thoughts

How I recall the anguish felt, in the illness that took his life
The hapless feeling I held inside, on the visits I made each week
For their was nothing I could do to ease the hurt and take the pain away
From this man I loved since birth, only this epitaph is left, of what he means to me

I recall the time I drove him to see his sister, my Aunt, who was his favorite
I think back to when we're young, and the many trips we all would take
How much we laughed, in those bygone days, how I wish I could go back in time, and see him smile again

Another thought, came into view as I rode upon a remembrance, from another time and place, so many years ago
My Daddy, loved to fish, he took me on my first fishing trip
How could I ever forget, the cane poles he brought home that day, for I was all of seven, in the year of '55

On that special fishing trip we took that very day, we traveled down a back road, along the river's edge
When we got to the place along the bank; he said "we'll start here today"
He started showing me how to fish; I'll never forget the view of the river, thru the vestige of the setting sun, in the coolness of the day

When he caught a fish, a catfish he said, how proud was I to have a Daddy, to share this moment with me
Even now, after all these years, I see the smile upon his face, how I miss him so
If only I could turn back the clock, and relive those memories again

Now as I approach the end of my life, I think back to the day my Daddy died
Of how he faced his demise, he showed such dignity filled with grace, as he prepared to be with the Lord

I still remember the look on his face, as he took his last breath in this world
I whispered softly as he started to go, Daddy follow the light to the other side
God will be waiting for you, so have no fear, enjoy your stay

You'll be seeing us all one day, for you did what a Daddy is supposed to do
You took good care of Mom, and the rest of us too, and helped us to become who we are
The love you instilled, in each of our lives, will forever remain in our hearts

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
August 07, 2006