A Good Son

Dedicated To: Maria Cecilia Ruiz (03/10/24)-(03/28/03)

Three years ago today dear Mother, you left to be with God

I lay upon your tombstone, red roses you like so much

I can't help but think of the day you died, in the home that was your life

As we walked into your bedroom on that early foggy morn

To wait for death, which will stop the pain and take your soul from us

I see the color in your eyes, as I approach your crumpled bed

No need to speak dear Mother, for you send volumes with just your look and stare

I think back to a week ago, when it was just the two of us

In this bedroom you slept in, for over 40 years

I remember those very words, you were able to convey

"You've been a good son, for all these years, so think of me when I go, for I will always love you son"

Tears began to well in me, soon the flow ran down my cheeks

I tried to hold them back, even in the pain you bore it was you who comfort me

Now the week has passed us by, the hospice nurse prepared us well

For this very day, the time has come to say goodbye, as we surround your bed

The daughters and sons you've loved so much, circle you with tears of sadness

To say goodbye to the one we love, to the one who gave us life

Sleep dear Mother, go in peace Dad is waiting on the other side

So take his hand, he'll guide you thru, into a peaceful place

Where pain is just an after thought, in the shadows of your mind

I remember that day, only so well the hurt has never left

I try to put it behind me, and forget the pain of death

To the one who carried me inside, and gave me all her love

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz

A Moment In Time

Dedicated To: Jacob Deleon

Have you ever wanted, a moment in time
To return again, and again

As I sit in my chair, with loneliness by my side
I think of the friends, who no longer exist

And I wonder, when my time will end
They say there's advantages to growing old

But as I approach my 95th year
The only advantage, I feel in my bones
Is my death, which is certain to be

The sting of death, has taken its toll
My wife, my kids, my brothers, and sisters

All gone and buried away, as I sit in my chair
Only thoughts, remain of the joy, I remember only so well

My body did leave me 10 years ago
But my mind is still sharp, and as quick as a whip

I cry each night, when my dreams recollect
Of the loves ones, who's gone their way

And I pray to my God, who's taken away
The ones that I loved so much

I feel I've suffered enough, in my life
But Lord, it's your thoughts that count

If you would grant me, the dreams which I pray
And place me in a chair, in your home

Let me rekindle, the joys of my youth
And I'll share all my thoughts with you

Unspoken

Dedicated To: Evangeline M. Ruiz (30th Anniversary Poem)

In the years, since we committed our love and said our holy I do
How many time have I heard you say, " you've forgotten my birthday,
our anniversary, and all the holidays, that means so much to me,
sometimes I wonder, if you've forgotten the love, you claim you have for me"

Well love, I'm here to settle the score, and tell you how I truly feel
About the love, that resides inside my heart, not lost nor misplaced
Just unspoken, now my love, the time has come to express my feelings
To rekindle the flames and desires of the memories, I hold only for you

I thought about how to tell you this, as we approach our 30th anniversary
So I decided to buy a card, and write my dreams, into words
And describe the love, I have for you, which radiates deep, from within my soul

It seems over the years, I've forgotten how it used to be
I remember when we were young, I loved just being together
So eager was I, to share our thoughts, made me quiver with sheer delight

I'm sorry I've hurt you, I know the love you have for me, has never changed
But as we approach our golden years, I want the memories of our youth
To bring us together, the way it used to be, to you my love, I say this

There's no one who can match, what you've done for me
The time has come to tell you this, and bring the dreams we've shared together
Back into our lives

Love always and forever, Roland...........

Daughter Of Your Thoughts

Dedicated To: Chrissy Marie Ruiz

Dear Lord up so high, I question as to why, death is in the air
When a child of your creation, pays a visit every year

Mother Nature is her name, has a will all her own
You pay no favorites Lord, for you give it to one and all

Soon the season will adorn, our beautiful Gulf Coast shore
Along the southern borders, in the good old USA

I recall, oh so well, the memories are still so fresh
Of the loss of life and home, we suffered just last year

The daughter of your thoughts, bore some children, recently
In a season, we'll remember, for all eterntiy

Evil in their sinister ways, much like the ones, who ran away
Katrina and Rita are the names, which will live forever

In the minds of those infected by the storms of last September
Dear Lord, to you so high above, I say a silent prayer

If you would ask your Daughter, to keep her anger down
Let's not repeat the season, that we suffered just months ago

And give us time to heal the pain, that remains with us today