Tortured Eyes

Dedicated To: Sabrina Ruiz

In between my tortured eyes, deep within my troubled soul
I see a heart full of hurt, left there by the one I love

Who's gone to fight in a war, so far away from home
A soldier's wife I've learned to be, but the clouds of doubt my Mother knew
Has been passed on to me, for off to war my father went in 1973

He did not get to see my birth, for Vietnam bound was he
And now the fears my Mother knew, has come to haunt me so

For in a jungle he did fight, a congressional medal was won by him
But at what price, the life he gave
Meant much more, then the medal he won that day

So their I grew in a world, without a Father to comfort me
To see me grow, into the woman I turned out to be
Oh, how I miss what he gave up, to defend a land across the sea

Now the circle has come around, my beloved, whom I love so much
Has gone to war, across the sea, to fight an enemy who knows no fear of death

I pray each day, to God above, to bring him home to me
To keep him safe, from the perils of death, which follows his every step

And break this cycle, I know so well, so our child, will know a Dad
For my tortured eyes will weep no more, when my husband comes back to me

The Demon In The Bottle

Like the silence in a endless night
In the windmills of my mind
Lies fate, which acts as a stepping stone
Back to another place and time
In search of hope, to ease the pain
And heal my tormented soul

Six months have passed, since I tasted
The contents of the bottle in front of me
I keep it on the night stand
To remind me of my yesteryears
Of what was lost, and the hurt I've caused
Along the road of a shattered life
Which unfortunately belongs to me

I blame the demon in the bottle
That sits in front of me
I try to convince myself of this
But in reality, the blame belongs to me

I have a wife, who loves me so
Along with a son and daughter
They think the world of me
Why I threw all this away
I'll never really know

I know that now, just wish I knew
One year ago, this month
That's when I woke from a drunk
To find my wife and kids had left
With only the demon to comfort me
We toasted the night away

For six long months it went that way
I worked all day, came home at night
To drink my pain away
Then one morning a phone call came
From my wife, between the tears, she says to me

Little Danny is very sick, he's in a coma
The doctors say, he may not last the night
As I drove into the mist, to seek the son I love
I reached out with a prayer, to God above

I know I've been a sinner, have hurt the ones I love
If you would please help my son, and bring him back to us
In return, I'll make this promise, to never drink again

When I reached the hospital, early in the morn
My wife and daughter, where standing down the hall
When they saw me, our eyes began to weep
We hugged and kissed, between the tears
They let me know the score

Danny is in the operating room
Its been two hours, no news yet
But the operation is his only hope
So, the doctors say

Within the hour, the doctors came out
To let us know, our son pulled thru all right
It was touch and go, for awhile
but he's young and strong, has a will to live

So be at ease, the doctor said
He's in the recovery room
It wont be long, you'll see him soon
I shook their hands, to thank them
As they turned towards the door

In that moment of turmoil, caused my life to change
Since that day, the bottle, has been left unopened
The demon remains inside, on the night stand next to me

One thought, I need to remember, since I've turned my life around
I am an alcoholic, that I'll always be
With help from wife and family, and God, from high above

I'll be a husband and Father, for they deserve no less from me