Fabric of Time

Is death the breeze which blows away?
The very fabric of time
Will it come quickly like the winds which sway?
In the hidden notes of a forgotten chime

Within the silence of a throbbing heart
Exists a calmness the nature of necessity
I wonder will this destiny soon depart
Towards clouds of peace created by reality

Opening a gate to the unknown
Exposing a lonely trodden road
I've never traveled before yet knowning I'm alone
Bedazzled and feeling the pressure from the load

I trek beyond my mortal fears
Towards a goal I hope to make
Amid the moisture of flowing tears
I take control for my very sake

Hearing the death knell of the breeze
It shakes the outer edge of time
Forcing the trees to drop their leaves
Enticing my soul to wither and pine

Leaving this place of contentment
I'll gather new thoughts within this ride
To all that waits in wonderment
With open eyes and sorrowful pride

I wait to greet my fate

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
July 13, 2009

Scarlet Streams

There's a silent hush upon her face
Half hidden within sweet dreams
Memories lost in a maddening chase
Across the scarlet streams

Conceived in being a righteous lass
A country girl who wears no crown
She grew into a woman of class
In her move to jolly London town

In a solemn attitude so different than before
She learns it's not quite the same
As she bolts and locks the door
Wondering what price is paid for fame?

Now the days are spent alone
No time for fun just work
Recalling the times back home
Questions begin to lurk

One day she wakes yearning
From what was left behind
Thoughts from the past are burning
Within her tearful mind

Reflected from the mirror lines appear
Showing the effects of time
As the days turn into years
Teary eyes begins to pine

For what will never be
From all she left behind
Greeting another morn she turns the key
As the sun begins to shine

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
July 11, 2009

Silent Call

Dedicated: Those who work & retire

In the specters of the lonely night
Lies the dreams of hidden fears
Coming in riddles without much light
Struggling to maintain, I'll shed no tears

For what befalls befits this soul
I've earned my fate paid my dues
From this heat is felt the cold
Now it's time to take the cue

To drive towards the falling sun
To end what I've always done
Now I've become the total sum
Of a stranger who has been shunned

Time waits on no man
Has a calling all its own
In its move across the sands
Relentlessly it seeks a home

It catches up to one and all
Exploding upon the scene
It whispers a silent call
Curtailing a fading dream

No matter what will flow
From my remaining days
I'll accept the winds which blow
In my trek towards the setting rays

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
July 1, 2009

Who Am I

Who am I to tell you
Why the stars shine so bright
Who am I to explain
Why the day turns into night

Why do I even ponder
The reasons for this plight
For I'm a non-believer
I seek a torch to light

From the darkness of this cavern
That been a part of me
I crave the freedom from the pain
Which fills this empty soul

To walk among the righteous
To view what I can't see
Hoping to shed the weakness
Which shields me from the fold

For the many unanswered questions
Which keeps me at bay
Until I become a convert
a sheep among the flock

To roam and be protected
By the shepherd who leads the way
Then the many mysterious wonders
With a key he shall unlock

Enlightening the shadows of who I am
For my queries have been paved
By the blood of the Son who is the lamb
Within his grace my soul be saved

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
May 31, 2009

Final Moments

Can a heart be lost forsaken?
In a guise we call despair
Will the hurt given and taken
Be forgiven with loving care

Or is it just a fading memory
One's life to cry in shame
A cover to hide the mystery
For the reasons igniting the flames

So much does come my way
In the autumn of my life
Hoping it's not to late to pray
To rid these pains of strife

I'll ask to be forgiven
From the life I've defiled
For the hurt I caused the living
Brings repentance from this child

I know of only one
To take this pain away?
From the Father comes the son
Risen from the grave

I hear an Angel coming
Its name we know as death
My final hours are looming
I feel a shortness of breath

In my final moments
I'll reach to touch his hands
With grace he'll offer sonnets
In our walk across the sands

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
June 7, 2009

Dreams One Cast

It's said time a reflection of one's self
Captured memories treasures from the past
Dangerous yet alluring sometimes deeply felt
Best remembered in the dreams one cast

Upon this path we walk, we age
Leaving our youth behind
Like a bird hoping to leave its cage
We thrive to fly with clearness of mind

But that's not always the case
For life comes with ragged edges
Bumps we feel to line our face
Emoting fears we transverse the ledges

Afraid of what's below
We stare straight ahead
Creating a facade to proudly show
A cover easily painted and shed

Now as the gates of reality nears
It's time to close this page
Bringing an end to whimsical cheers
Of my ambitions of becoming a sage

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
May 25, 2009

Tides of Time

Will shameful desires be found in the specters of remorse?

Is the boundary which we share just a memory from the past

In bending heart and soul, will moments expand so dreams will last?

As we seek the flowing streams along this rugged course

A Rose by a rambling brook

In the early misty morn

Brings the sharpness of a daunting look

From a face so weathered and worn

Like the many straining shadows, to dash this urge of mine?

Our roving eyes come to meet, across a crowded room

Bringing back forgotten thoughts, as memories begin to pine

Of the love we once enjoyed as the past begins to loom

Wishing reverting passion would slowly commence to stray

Trying to hide the feelings, I stare another way

You with your husband, me with my wife

Slowly turning towards each other, we smile to cover the strife

Concealing the sultry feelings we shared so long ago

I whisper to my beloved, it's best we do take leave

Wondering as the door is closed could she possibly know

Not a word was as we drove home thru the rustling leaves

But deep inside I know she knows the carnal truth

Of the tryst, I tried to hide amid the tides of time

Written by Roland R. Ruiz

May 10, 2009

If

If a portrait of my dreams could be painted
Upon the shadows of your thoughts
What colors would yours eyes reflect?
Within the shelter of my heart

If a token of my love could embrace
The beauty of your soul
How long would time let us entwine?
As we sail towards the stars, beyond the Milky Way

If I could hold you close to me
As the storms of fears appear
What calm would be exposed
As we shed the sadden tears

From so many memories
Which clouds the sullen skies?
Our caressing touch would spark a light
To help us find the way

Towards eternal bliss arm in arm
We'll search towards a goal
An interlude to put a close
To all that ever been

As we dance into the canyons
Which holds serenity?
I'll peer within your shadows
To dreams of yesteryear

If only I were not so shy
What bliss would we create?
In our walk towards our fate
But alas it is too late

As I watch you drift away
Into the silence of the night

Written by Roland R. Ruiz
May 7, 2009

Warmth of Love

It's odd how the changing season
Brings an abruptness to the air
May brings the nesting birds and the warmth
To make plants grow

Makes one think that winter has left
But that's not how it fares
Living in Texas, spring is short-lived
Wishing it were slow

Having friends in England, I chat with saying
It's cold so awful frigid
I wonder how they would feel
If every day were 95 degrees and above

That's how it will be this week
The humidity just as rigid
Now the heat has come to roost
For this I have no love

My friends it's just going to get hotter and dryer
For sure that is no fun
I've seen in my lifetime in this Lone Star State
21 straight days of 100 and above

So to those of you who enjoy
The ups and downs of an English sun
Remember good old puddles, which in a matter of hours
Will see that rising star
Spreading the warmth of unrelenting love

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
May 04, 2009

Forgotten Secrets

Restrained amid the canyons of many sad regrets
Lie forgotten secrets I keep hidden within my wretches dreams
They come inside the darkness not trying to digress
Signals from the past dodging the nothingness between the schemes

They ride upon memories I'm not able to resist
Upon an ever widening cavern, I seek what is not there
Enlacing the passion much revered, I remember our last kiss
The mingle of fears in our final caress, tortures to hard to bear

Compressing my thoughts between the stars and the rising Moon above
Did I throw my heart to the wind, in my walk around your love
Now that time has riddled the ages, I ponder where I went wrong
Or is our destiny to pass as ships into the mist and fog

I'll wonder what awaits beyond the crest as the years begins to fade
Will it bring a close to the loneliness as the road begins to narrow
Do I dare wish the feeling of emptiness to remain within the shade
For tomorrow brings another day and the coldness from the sorrow


While the tears shed for past mistakes rules a heart so barren and cold
I'll have to live in the choice I made for now the time is late
This helps to decide my destiny in the ride towards my fate
In chosen a life without a partner conveys the hollowness of my soul

For in this void, I've come to rue

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
April 24, 2009

Ribbons of Pink Lace

33rd Wedding Anniversary Poem, for Evangeline
(04-24-76)

As the sun begins to set between the late evening dew
My eyes paint a portrait from the reflections of your face
Across the canvas of the sky with brush strokes of golden hues
I create sparkling rainbows holding ribbon of pink lace

To drape upon your loveliness, which I carry within my heart
As I smother you with kisses for you take my breath away
Each moment of our closeness will ensure we'll never part
In our voyage amid the struggles a reminder for us to pray

As the stars fade into the twilight
The sun will rise to show the way
Towards the passion of our solemn plight
Sheer beauty expounds in the words I say

For the total sum of commitment is needed in sharing this reality
On a path we follow together in search of eternal bliss
Entwining our lives as never before, we seek a true destiny
For in this trek towards forever, our love will never cease

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
April 10, 2009

A Father's Love

Dedicated: Those who have felt the shame and pain of child abuse

There is something in the air
I feel it in my bones
As I lie dying on this bed
Feeling empty so alone

I hear sounds from the sky
Not sure of what they are
How I wish for death to come
To release me from this lie

For all these many years
There's been a part of me
I've kept quite due to fears
So ashamed it made me feel

For hatred still embraces
The very fabric of my soul
It comes to me at night
In the horrors I must face

Never been one of faith
Lost it in my youth
Cannot believe a God
Would allow such abuse

To please my tearful wife
A reverend paid a visit
With a bible between his hands
Saying beyond death there's another life

He said the price to enter
Is to believe in God above
To accept his Son as our redeemer
That's all that must be done

So I took his words to savor
There must be something else
For I fear to die alone
I'll ask for a graceful favor

Remove the hatred I carry
Warm this heart so cold
Forgive my sinful ways
For my time begins to fold

I hear a movement in the air
An Angle is by my bed
Telling me Jesus sent him
As he reaches for my hands

He says do not fear
I've come to take you home
I'll guide you to a Father's love
Like you've never known before

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
March 24, 2009

Lone Star State

It rains not much in Texas
We're known for grander things
Among them is the heat
Which beats upon the plains

There are ranches big in acres
Longhorns grazing across barbwire
Atop the coastal dunes
Wild Mustangs still run free

In April come the Bluebonnets
Giving color to the highways
A sign of Spring's arrival
To take the chill away

Right now we're in a drought
How we pray for cloud filled moisture
To fill our lakes and close the cracks
Which marks the dusty and arid land

We've come to know as home
The farmers pray the hardest
Without rain no crops to harvest
Just dry brush fills the fields

Which feeds the fire's glow
It's great to live in Texas
Don't take me wrong my friends
I am proud to be a Texan

Would live no other place
I ask this one small favor
From my friends across the sea
When you say your prayers

Would you take a second or two
To remember your friend named puddles
Who's in need of a helping hand
In bringing the rains to flow

Upon this rainless mass
Which sustains so many souls
To end the drought that taken a grip
Upon this Lone Star State

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
April 11, 2009

Note of Tranquility

Dedicated: To those who suffer the anguish of Mental Illness

Have you ever thrown caution to the vestige of the wind
As you sleep within the emptiness that exists between the seams
From the stillness of the night I hear the currents begin to whine
As I walk along the shadows in the valley of my dreams

They beat a note of tranquility from a past forgotten land
In sounds profoundly surreal so alone and lost I feel
Engaging the swirling of the air I thread atop a wicked span
Balancing upon a rope called strife I seek to break this seal

For in the anguish I've acquired creates an empty base so cold
Trying to keep my sanity encased I drift to tearful sadness
From a disease known as mental illness a slow torture of the soul
Brings a rapture in the dark slowly creating fears of madness

I've learned it never mellow in the shelter of my mind
As I shift between the sane and the craziness of this world
In my wander to find a way I get bewildered without a sign
So I'll take my time in my stride to avoid the winds which swirl

Towards the sanctity of my compassion commences a gentle flow
So I'll accept with gladness what comes for me today
Traveling towards the brightness which surrounds me with a glow
Praying to my God each passing hour will bring relief this way

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
April 2, 2009

Mesenger of Love

Within the silence of the night I hear the messenger of love
Bringing forgotten longings within the lyrics of our songs
It sings of magical times across a rainbow high above
Reminding us of all that's passed on a road winding and long

So often from what we share, reflects the sum of our destiny
Quenching desires, enticing the thirst which feeds our very fate
A simple kiss, a loving look, melts the ice releasing the true reality
Flooding our hearts as never before creating that mystical gate

As we go on not letting the hurt or even the tears
Stop the love within our hearts from forgetting our yesterdays
We meet each hour as if our last amid the faceless fears
Accepting the good along with the worse, we forge for another way

To a place beyond forever gleaming like the stars
Across the endless skies which lie before our eyes
It's there for all to hear in the sounds of the musical bars
Singing the sweetness of the years caressing our eternal binds

Awakening from my dreams with a calling I shall pass
Between the covers of the sheets I reach for you my love
To whisper in your ear, the yearnings of the past
For the message I convey rides on the wings of dove

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
March 20, 2009

Boundaries

Boundaries

There lies in the boundaries of space and time
A substance which exits to define our very thoughts
Collimating in dreams, along with the hopes we seek to find
Turning what was lost from the pains sold and bought

As the sun arise erasing the fading stars, we face another day
A saving grace majestically increasing the total sum
Of our inner being this helps to light the way
Across this bridge we arrive, ready for the run

Avoiding the gaps, lying in wait to foil what we have done
Turning towards the flowing rainbows, which never seems to dim
We follow the waves of solitude we beat our hearts as one
As we turn towards each other our eyes cross in mystical whim

We discover the love between us, has ignited all over again
We act as once we did before, when youth was in control
But now there comes a different a total new beginning
For in the boundaries of this love, our joys will we console

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
March 13, 2009

What is It?

What is it?

That takes your breath away

In your wake to the morning light
That comes before all else
As the sun befalls the day

What is it?
That makes you feel surreal
In your trails and ordeals
As you go into the night
Not knowing of the plight

What is it?
That shows not lasting fear
In the middle of a crowd
With or without tears
Or in total solitude

What is it?
That carries you at times
When you're feeling oh so low
Thinking all is lost
You search until you find

The answer to your prayers
It lies before your eyes
It come without disguise
What is it?

Love

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
March 07, 2009

Mortal Time

Between the shifting sand
Ticks the seconds of mortal time
Residing in the fringes of the land
In whispers atop the lonesome pine

It beats the sounds of forgotten memories
Slowly approaching, almost divine
Preaching the sanctity within the breeze
Drawing us closer to our deep design

If one listens very closely
To the melodies in our grieves
It sings of being lonely
As autumn befalls the leaves

Like droplets in an hourglass
Slowly flowing grain by grain
Much as life without a pass
Brings the tears which holds the pain

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
March 1, 2009

The Legacy

Have you ever wondered about the legacy?
Your written words will leave behind
For those gifted with prose who write so graciously
Ideas are formed within the heart to stimulate the mind

Like an artist who paints, a cantor who sings
A player of musical notes resounding with magical chimes
Brings a sparkle of delight much as regal kings
Convey to their kingdoms with rhyme

Much can be said of the gifts received
Dispensed at the moment of life
Molded with love so well conceived
Upon the traveled byways paved in the ways of strife

Not all will realize the treasures held within the soul
Some will end the trip, without utilizing their gifts
While others will leave lasting memories so fruitful and bold
To those who'll share the essence in this wayward drift

I say it's been an honor to read and hear your starlit dreams
For you convey within your thoughts the way it ought to be
The words you leave behind will light the dark between the seams
Imparting everlasting marks engraved for all to read, hear and believe

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
February 10, 2009

Voyage of Love

In the voyage of love amid a sea of near calm
There echoes a melody we have long to be near
It comes inside the dew, within the twilight of time
Sounds from a love bird which sings without fear

It whispers of friendship you have given to me
For all the years shared united as one
In hard times more often then not, we had to agree
To settle our differences much work without fun

Nevertheless, thru it all we have come to belong
Sharing in life as a good husband and wife
As we reach the end of our journey we hear the sweet songs
From the heavenly birds which bring the sweetness of life

Look ahead my soul mate no tears will be cried
For the best is not over in our search for the end
Prepare to debark we will say no good-byes
For the quest in this journey, lies without sin

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
February 02, 2009