Roland's Poems

Angel's Call

2010-11-30T18:05:00.001-06:00

Between the twilight of the stars
Resounds the musical notes and bars
Which dance beside the moon that beams?
Reflections of rainbows caressing our dreams

Oh, how the cover of fleeting dusk
Opens the shadows of this trust
Collected in a collage of words
Sonnets of a lesser purge

What lies in our earthly passage?
Inside our souls is there a message
For time moves in a ghastly haste
We seek to find just what we chase

Is reality the quicken of our fate
Do we travel this road for our sake?
Does destiny resides in the falling sands
Can death be the drummer of the band?

The hopes to a much better life
Away from misery and much strife
Will cascade towards a somber end
To those who die with mortal sins

I feel that justice has a price
It comes in the roll of the dice
Moving in flows of wishful might
Brings a sparkle to the night

In the rainbows of pure delight
Lives the saving grace so bright
It’s given free to one and all
Who listens to the Angel’s call?

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
October 05, 2010

Sweet Dreams

2010-11-25T08:16:00.002-06:00

Dedicated: My Far Away Friend

If I could lead you by the hand

Towards the summit of this land

What marvels the eye would see?

In their glance towards serenity

For in this range of snow and ice

Lay valleys of love that do entice

One to a different kind of life

An aroma of much lesser strife

Inside the shadows of our homes

Grow the gardens soon to loom

With seeding flowers and singing birds

A sure sign that spring will soon emerge

As we transverse the ice blue lakes

We’ll walk along smooth sands that date

To a calm and kinder time of fate

Where souls contrive and hold no hate

Along the grassy plains which crest

Upon the base of mountains we’ll test

The inner strength of nature’s best

In retaining the spirit of this quest

We’ll forge together always as friends

For in the end our thoughts will trend

From special feelings we shall beam

Beyond the cosmos of sweet dreams

Written by Roland R. Ruiz

September 10, 2010

Darken Dens

2010-11-22T06:08:00.003-06:00

Way down deep within my soul

A howling wind is blowing
Sending chills ever so cold
I try to keep from showing

Knowing not where I'm going
makes it feel surreal totally unknowing
Towards the center of something glowing
My heart seems to be flowing

Wondering if all my thoughts are shallow
I'll thread lightly hoping all to be mellow
Marching to a tune not sure how to follow
On a road so callous and hallow

As I seek what lies around the bend
I pray and hope a kindness will lend
A helping hand to a man whose sinned
Upon wilderness filled with darkened dens

I've hurt those I love I want to make amends
Before time runs its course my soul commends
To a brightness within a never ending light
For I am ready to meet this glorious sight

I have set my house in order
At the river's end I'll cross that border
Into a grace so lined with peace
I'll dine at the table of a new feast

The sting of death I once thought I feared
I know embrace with joyful tears
My time at hand has been blessed
By the Master's shield and his regal crest

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
October 17,2010

Entangled

2010-10-22T18:46:00.003-06:00

Within the elegance of time

Lay the whispers inside the lines

Holding memories ever so fine

Some that hurt some that binds

As one rides the current of air

Life strides by sometimes unfair

Can be compared to a spider’s lair

Traversing the web will we dare?

Many get caught, and entangled

Within the lies hate will strangle

Leaving some to struggle and dangle

What’s left been completely mangled?

Those with goodness in the heart

Will fare better in their start

Avoiding the traps as they dart

Between the madness inside the dark

Dodging the pitfalls along their plight

Still struggling in this fight

The Tempter tries to steal the night

For truly he is a blight

Once the web is left behind

We’ll reach a land so ever kind

On golden tables we shall dine

In wait of the Son, voice divine

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz

September 9, 2010

Begin the Beguine

2010-10-17T06:03:00.003-06:00

In memory of my Mother & her favorite song

Upon this face where lines so grace
Are bright patterns that do interlace?
The good, the bad, the in between
Some parts I wish had never been

Open hearts can be cold and chilling
Accepting thoughts deep and willing
Mostly holding sweet memories
At times containing calamities
Ones span can be short, or even long

Much like an uncompleted song
If short, our notes will be diminished
If long our music will reach a finish
Time and age go hand in hand

Must like the players in a band
Marching robustly upon the sands
Heading towards a unknown land
In reaching that point of time
Questions will form within the mind
Why is life suddenly speeding up?
Like a runaway lurching truck

Racing on pavement soon to end
Upon a road so straight not even a bend
Fears linger as the hourglass empties
Can my tunes be reaching finality?

So I will follow the winds that blow
Leading to musical notes that flow
Across the golden sands of time
In search of a place richly sublime

Wishing my words begin the beguine?
Will that be the last of all I see?
What lies beyond the unbent road?
The start of a new song about to explode

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
August 28, 2010

Second Time Around

2010-09-30T15:57:00.003-06:00

Does one sleep within a dwelling
That's locked with a sacred key
Can a soul lie open and ever so willing?
To share sweet memories

Can one hear the call of transgressions?
Which echoes inside sad sorrows?
Or do we ignore the tell tale lessons
The warnings which quell silent morals

I've tasted the chill of all we lost
Arriving at night in howling winds that bay
The different ways I made you cross
Accounts for the errors from my ways

I hear the call of loneliness
From dreams shared from this bed
I'll prepare a better closeness
To this man I came to wed

Upon the swells so well tossed
I'll rid myself of this veil
Regretting the passion I somehow lost
Now found again on this ship we sail

From a man who's been ever so sound
I hope to discover that very thought
Is love better the second time around
By renewing a vow I'll never doubt

Tenderness resides in remaining years
Tightly held our hands will enlace
The passing of time amid flowing tears
Signals togetherness as our hearts embrace

Written by Roland R. Ruiz
August 23, 2010

A Spider's Behind

2010-09-02T08:12:00.004-06:00

Roland kisses a spider’s behind

To the Beacons Gals he owes this line
Due to the words he leaves as rhymes
Now this photo will be the sign

He’s a true Texan not mad but kind
Doreen and Norma he treats unjust
Sometimes he puts himself in a bind
But others think he is a plus

To the Na Sayers who I’ve let astray
I ask forgiveness for my terrible ways
It’s just the style of the way I play
I mean no harm in all I say

Even to my wife I act this way
Craziness seems to be a part of me
At times I do make her day
Even when I run to the loo to pee

It seems I put my foot in my mouth
Every time I open my trap
Many will think I’m a louse
But in the end I’m caught like a rat

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
August 23, 2010

Webs of Time

2010-09-02T07:45:00.002-06:00

What lurks inside a breathless thought?
Which conjures regrets so keenly sought?
Of love we’ve shaped but somehow lost
Leaving pains of remorse at a priceless cost

It seems I’ve kept a life condensed
Filled with mistrust and much offense
Enough to drive us far apart
Creating a hate within our hearts

Sparked by a painful lustful past
Much like the members of a cast
I’ve come to realize just how far
We’ve sunk into this dismal mire

Now destiny has come to right the wrong
Committed together we’ll create a new song
Of love once known but lost in the dew
Cleared by the winds from the mist that blew

For in the meandering webs of time
United in love we shall find
What is hoped to be divine
From this song we will shine

A tune to a much brighter day
Richness abounds in words we’ll say
Renewed by passion we begin anew
Into a domain with skies so blue

Where reality is filtered no blemishes roam
With endearing love readily installed
All spirits united acting enthroned
We walk to the cadence where love is enthralled

Written by Roland R. Ruiz
August 9, 2010

Texas Teddy Bear

2010-08-20T16:47:00.003-06:00

There lies inside this Texas frame

A mind that loves to play
Within my thoughts it’s mostly jest
In all that I convey

Never one to shy away
From all that I do say
Bringing laughs, maybe a smile
Becomes me that’s my style

At times do tend to get carried away
Going a bit too far
Others may think my thoughts are frayed
Deserving to be barred

No disrespect will be marred
In the forum few participate
Meaning no harm in what is sparred
In the games Alan create

For I’m a big Texas Teddy Bear
A push over you might say
One who’ll never take a dare?
Or ever asked for a raise in pay

The lessons in life I’ve come to see
Noticed by family and valued peers
For age has finally caught up with me
Changing my rhymes to tearful jeers

If by chance I skip a dance
Slowing down a little bit
My fears may make me prance
Maybe it’s best I sit

Deep down within this Texas heart
Beats a goodness true and blue
I’ll share all I can before I part
Into the madness of the dew

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
August 01, 2010

Mr. Lucky & Miss Norma

2010-08-13T12:00:00.001-06:00

For Norma, a nurse I tease to no end

Look out Mr. Lucky watch out where you’re going
Stop scaring me do you know what you’re doing
Getting tired of all this roaming and moving
It’s time to settle down and start a life of honest loving

I’m tired and fed up with being treated like a dog
You act towards me as if I’m a dumb clog
We’ve been shacking up for nearly two years
It’s time to put a ring on my paw, no reason to fear

I want to have a family, a couple of puppies will do
All the birth control pills have been thrown down the loo
So beware when you want to get close and be near
Buy a gold ring, and I’ll treat you so special and dear

The time for free loving has gone out the door
Miss Norma wants a husband, could care less if we’re poor
So now you know how I have come to feel
You want to sleep with me tonight a ring will seal the deal

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz July 8, 2010

Grains of Sand

2010-08-05T12:38:00.002-06:00

I feel the falling grains of sand
Will bring an end that’s near
I see the time is close at hand
Just moments left I fear

Feelings I have learned to hide
From those who I are my kin
Causing hurt to those I’ve sinned
From one who’s filled with pride?

I fear that I have seen the last
Of memories from the past
The canyons of lost happiness
Contain a barren hollowness

A life of dread I have concealed
From those with broken hearts
I asked dear God as I kneel
To make this hurt depart

I trust in Jesus name I pray
Light the dark within this cave
Heal the pains from the past
Forgive the sins I have cast

Through your Son I asked forgiveness
Within his eyes resides the brightness
From his touch is felt your grace
The tears he shed embrace my face

Now the hour glass has drained
No grains of sand will flow
Inside a soul once filled with pain
Now binds a heart that glows

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
July 21, 2010

Runaways

2010-07-21T03:26:00.003-06:00

Now it’s time to leave I fear, I am a runaway
I’ve packed my case, with my Teddy I’m ready to fade away
Into the English countryside
We’ll seek a place to hide

We’ll find a spot set the rules, and break them if we choose
After all what else is there to loose?
We’re brave me and my Teddy no one to tell us what to do
If only Mum and Dad would know the outdoors is my loo

But now the day has grown so short, the light begins to dim
We’re in the middle of a forest we need to find a limb
Big enough to hold us both above the ground that’s cold
I’m beginning to think we made a mistake in acting ever bold

I hear the sounds of the forest they seem to be all around
What chance has we to stand our ground if lucky we’ll be found
Who would think the woodlands would get so dark and scary
How I wish we were in our room under the covers well buried

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
June 19, 2010

Golden Crescent

2010-07-21T03:12:00.003-06:00

The day will come when Mother Nature will face the test of time

It seems the hour has arrived carrying a hurt that blinds the mind
It preys atop the ocean waves, spreading its evil webs
The blacken ooze coats the sea beneath in silence flows the ebbs

For beauty once adorned this golden crescent known as the Gulf of Mexico
It’s tarnished to the point of no return as the wind emits sad echoes
What once we took as so pristine unmarked by human hands
Now is marred by greedy excuses black tides will mark our precious sands

Is it too late to change our fate can we control our destiny
Are we to witness an ocean’s demise before our very eyes?
Every day this well remains uncapped brings death a little closer
Time is slowly running out our Gulf Coast needs a closure

If by the grace of God we’re able to stop the flow of oil
Years will be needed to clean our shores to again become unspoiled
Not to mention the loss of life atop the shoreline beneath the ocean
Even know the cessations of life stirs lively commotions

From those who live along the coast, making a honest living
They will suffer untold damage from their lively way of giving
Caused soulfully by man’s stupidity in drilling so terribly deep
Now Mother Nature will decide when to stop the tears she weeps

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
June 18, 2010

Vanishing Bees

2010-07-21T03:02:00.003-06:00

(Camellias from Norma’s backyard)

I am a flower in Norma’s garden
If only the bees would beg my pardon
They steal from me my golden harvest
Then they buzz into the forest

I remember when they were many
Now you hardly see any
What’s causing this disappearance?
For they're magnificence in their appearance

I fear there is something amidst
The bees have gone their is no bless
Is Mother Nature at a lost?
For the bees are needed at all cost

They take the nectar I impart
Spreading it around as they dart
The shame will be when they're no longer here
In defiance spring time will jeer

When the bees vanish one less will share
The nectar of life I give with care
But time moves on, and so will I
Mother Nature will see that I survive

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
June 01, 2010

Oozy Black

2010-06-24T19:13:00.002-06:00

In the gibes we employ
Contain the glib we enjoy
In our tease to no end
To bring a smile or a grin

We spoke fun in our jest
In this spar of social unrest
Caressing a calm ever pleading
To a world sadly bleeding

Times of fun seems misgiving, even lost
Bringing heartaches at great cost
To the aftermath of misguided care
From this globe we all do share

Wouldn't it be nice if we could change
Towards a highway with super lanes
Keeping us on the straight and narrows
Without the pains from flying arrows

Such life would bring laughter back
Tears would dry our cries would lack
The Gulf of Mexico would be intact
but life and greed has become the fact

In this sordid mess of oozy black
Above, beneath the sea that's tracked
Lies God's critters his gift to all
Slowly dying has we no gall

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
June 7, 2010

Author's Note

As I type this poem on my computer, the TV is showing
the damage done to God's creatures due too our
greed and stupidity. May God forgive us for our sins?
Speaking as an American so ashamed of this travesty

Inner Shell

2010-06-21T04:56:00.002-06:00

To touch our lips with a kiss
Brings a feeling of total bliss
Sweetness felt between the sheets
As the morn arrives a new day we great

But not before passion uncurls
We take our time in love we swirl
We merged our bodies into one
Matching the rhythms of the rising sun

Lurching together, we shudder, explode
Falling back into a slumbering mode
Regaining our strength from intimates of love
Preparing ourselves we coo like flying doves

Awakening to feelings we hope will last
Due to the destiny of the past
Regales the reality of this glorious union
Dedicated to the powers so unassuming

We surge towards the winding bend
Together united we begin to blend
Into a form that will shape our end
Coming together we gather to mend

Lustful desires amid a burning flame
Continued thru the years the flicker remains
I feel as if I've grown into
The inner shell that belongs to you

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
May 28, 2010

Sordid Lies

2010-06-04T16:46:00.002-06:00

(A last grasp at togetherness)

What lurks inside a breathless thought?
Aroused by regrets so keenly sought?
Of love we've shared but somehow lost
The pain so conjures a priceless coast

If only the feelings we once did save
Return to us like the waves which crave
That special mood we nurtured and paved
Reflections of thoughts now ever so grave

Desires of love I wished returned
I know you feel you've been spurned
I've acted totally unconcerned
Is our bridge forever burned?

Such feelings are worth another try
I see your tears I hear you cry
I feel you want to say goodbye
From the many sordid lies

So now the rest is up to you
My promise for you is to be true
Forgiveness comes with many hues
From shames inflicted reside the dues

In this last grasp at togetherness
I ask to put aside the bitterness
From the visions of my roving ways
Will you turn the dark to the light of day?

For I'm a frail and weakened man
Who's seen the errors of this sham?
I want so much to keep this bank
You placed so lovely upon my hand

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
May 20, 2010

Caring Friendship

2010-05-21T19:12:00.004-06:00

Dedicated: Mystic Bluebell

In our walk upon this destiny that exists between two souls
Is heard a calling of sweet nature that is yet to unfold
It rings of caring friendship that has lasted thru the years
Bringing more often laughs, a few times it brought some tears

What makes this ever special is the gift we've come to share
A present from our Creator that shows how much he cares
Here lately you have written such words of golden hues
Like a rainbow from a gentle rain, that sweeps away the blues

How often have I wondered the world your eyes do see?
The beauty of your country which lies beyond the sea
To me it's like a rainbow arching above a mountain top
Conveying colors to my view in hope they'll never stop

I know it's not been easy on the road you both do walk
Hand in hand you stroll together in love you always talk
So hang in their my friend, you have many words to write
Hold on to your beloved I know he holds you tight

Soon it will be your birthday, you will turn another year
This presence in words I sent you is not to bring you tears
It's meant to make you happy, for we shared a common gift
Happy Birthday dearest Ursula, may my thoughts give you a lift

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
May 16, 2010

Games of Life

2010-05-10T19:25:00.003-06:00

What makes a man renounce
A quite love so pronounced
Kept still in the hearts by shame
Sad visions lost in the flames

In the passing years I realize
Of what i thought I idolized
For youth will play such trickery
In making thoughts so bitterly

But age can be the healing tool
Which calms the reasons of silly fools?
Like the dawn that sparks the day
It comes with a price we pay

For now it's just the hours we gage
Along with images inside the page
I pick and choose the games to play
My dreams I manage to keep at bay

For growing old can be such fun
To those of us who greet the sun
Each morning brings a different challenge
The trick is keeping in total balance

Some of you may understand
What I hope will not be panned
For others time is needed
But in the end all is seeded

I've come to this conclusion
Life is not all illusions
We've dodged the many arrows
Upon a road that slowly narrows

So I will end this parody
With respect and true sincerity
My wish for you is to live to grow old
Enjoy the games of life endeavor to be bold

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
May 6, 2010

The Winds of Life

2010-05-02T07:34:00.003-06:00

What are the reasons beholding sanctity?

Which turns the sea into tranquility?
Within the oceans of our souls
The winds of life are often bold

It comes to test our inner being
No discourse or smiles will be gleaming
For reality contains a naked starkness
Wrapped into a surreal darkness

We make the destiny of our voyage
Shaping the path towards the sage
In our trek from shameless games
Will the book of life contain our names?

The time to insure were we will be
Within the tides of the endless sea
Is in this cycle of painful remorse
In our sail we can change our course

Due to him who conquered all strife
Locked inside the gales of life
Lies a opening to a tranquil port
Ruled by the Master’s son and court

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
April 27, 2010

The Golden Years

2010-04-24T11:33:00.002-06:00

For Evangeline

(34th Wedding Anniversary Poem)
(04/24/76)

Across the crimson tides of time
We walk along an ocean shore
Together hand in hand we chime
Marching towards where love is stored

This journey of many years began
When you became my loving wife
In faith and trust we’ve kept our vows
Upon this road of life and strife

Now we approach the golden years
The web of fears we leave behind
The coast is clear, no tears to shed
Along this water line

For in the supple sands beneath our feet
There’s felt the caressing flow of waves
From this total bliss we’ll entwine
Forever we shall rave

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
January 15, 2010

Endless Change

2010-04-23T17:51:00.002-06:00

There is a raging sea, deep inside of me

With howling winds which blow consistently
Holding a steady course, having no choice I follow
In search of a calm quailing the rage within the shadows

It lies beyond the realms of time
The bounds of destiny echoing thoughts of lost rhymes
Resounding atop the crest of ocean swells
I sail upon a ghastly ship spurred on by ship’s bells

They chime in the darkness beyond the mist and fog
Along with the taste of the sea spray which enthralls
My senses entranced by the waves that dance
Within this abyss of endless chance

I stand my ground surge towards the blatant starkness
That reveals who I am inside the cloud of doubtless jest
Unknown if this calling will be saintly
With hope this voyage ends gallantly

I’ll spin what’s left of my remaining days
Hoping I’ll fall into the shade
Which holds what I so often prayed?
A bay of containment, where I’ll be saved

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
April 6, 2010

Washed By the Blood

2010-04-04T16:24:00.003-06:00

If God's grace lies within his eye's
Does it also abide in the gracious sky?
Which adorns the essence of aimless time?
Reverberating memories played in spiritual chimes

Creating moonlit shadows, in a heavenly song, amid endless stars
Which adorns the horizon, as the sun lights the dawn
Signs of wonder to behold, sung by Angels in gossamer wings
A precious gift to all who believe in his son and the word he brings

God gave his only son in death to save us from our dreadful sins
On that cross he paid the price in his last breath his lips did sing
Father please forgive those souls who know not the ways
By my mortality and resurrection grant them a saving say

A freedom of choice by him was paid
He leaves it up to us to choose the way
Beyond the darkness lies heavenly light
We need only to reach it's within sight

The home the Father made for us paid by the suffering of his son
Endures forever to those who plead to hear his song
For in the forgiveness of sins so tearfully shed
Lies cleansed, soaked by the blood, Christ Jesus bled

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
March 29, 2010

The Texas Blue Bonnet (State Flower of Texas)

2010-03-22T19:16:00.003-06:00

In the early days of March in the swirls of the cold north winds
Comes a spark beneath the earth lying dormant from a drought
Energized by warming sunlight charging from a northern spin
Cascading of the Rocky Mountains the sting of cold weaken by its route

Soon a stirring in the ground will make a bloom so rich and blue
Eager to show its glowing growth it breaks the sod with buds that sprout
Into a flower called the Blue Bonnet growing wild along the fields
Painting landscapes with hues of blue matching the sky in the morning dew

A reminder that winter will soon take leave, for spring is on the way
It comes with rains along with storms creating a makeover ever so pleasing
The Texas Blue Bonnet plants itself glittering in the sun rays
For eight weeks it will sparkle and bloom, then seeding concludes the season

Once the seeds enters the ground ensures the future of this flower so proud
The beauty it brings just last awhile but the memories last the year long
Until the next crop comes alive breaking the soil in its rush to please the crowd
Wild flowers lauds the change of a season, for in the twilight between the morning fog

One can hear the State Flower of Texas sing a springtime song

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
March 11, 2010

Unfilled & Unforgiving

2010-03-20T12:46:00.005-06:00

A fragile heart is never meant to be turned, ripped and broken
But so often what reflects from fading love we speak of very softly
The years that build this sacred trust at time will be cut short
By failures from the tainted bliss corrupted by our choice

We walk a line so ever fine only noticed when theire's a problem
It's up to us to work it thru, to straighten the pains and sorrows
At moments we're able to pull together, reaching a mutual desire
Other times we pull apart leaving painted promises to expire

What sort of voyage would be taken upon an ocean so mired?
Could togetherness form a cause to keep this hip from floundering?
Or would our drift upon this sea, leave a feeling lonely, dry and barren
A question one should seriously ponder before our sun does set

As we sail forwards seeking a new destiny
Searching the abyss for a different reality
The best will be if we can find that quiet calm
Releasing the torrents of love's abuse

For once the line of no return has been sadly crossed
We lose all the memories of what was and will never be
Sins we cannot escape from seems to flow very swiftly
Beneath the currents thrives our dreams unfilled and unforgiving

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
March 01, 2010

Enticing Sins

2010-03-04T18:39:00.002-06:00

Within the deepest pit of night
There lies what I conceal so tight
A part I try to keep untouched
In wait for the moment to be retouched

The feel of memories sadden still
By those departed with hearts so filled
With time captured by the hour glass
The sands in rapture form the past

A never ending collage of what might have been?
Parade inside the distance dreams which beam
Of ever flowing fears cascading into tears
Creating fading sorrows sown thru the years

Forming on a road with curbs which narrows
Enticing the sins which sting like arrows?
I continue to forge towards a goal unknown
Praying my soul is set free from the loams

Which surrounds the very essence of me?
As I approach the end, I'll look for the key
Seeking sinless strife, which comes in the light?
Thus opening the door to a much better life?

Everlasting it glows if one opens the heart
For tears of forgiveness will forever impart?
To receive these gifts reach out towards the hands
Extending from Heaven upon golden sands

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
February 12, 2010

Edge of Never

2010-02-06T22:01:00.004-06:00

I've yet to reach the edge of never
In my trek thru life's endeavor
I've yet to find all I seek
From a world in no way is meek

Alas I shall not give up
I'll strive to find this loving cup
Which holds the grace we surely need?
To face the strife within our deeds

It's this goodness we wish to find
To make us kind, which fills our minds?
Floating amidst this eternal bliss
Will steady our ship so not to list

We've learned we are the givers
In our search to find the keepers
Imparting thoughts we hope will soothe
Th lonely and lost along this cruise

I'll continue to seek my final port
Praying my thoughts will not be curt
Beyond this abyss lies the bay
Where tranquil waves, have their say

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
January 03, 2010

Reality

2010-02-04T07:00:00.002-06:00

Embroiled within a soothing balm
Into an ocean that once was calm
I seek a long lasting remedy
In my sail towards destiny

Unsure of what the waves will bring
I search for cresting swells which sing
The spiritual songs of serenity
From these lyrics replenish my sanity

Washing over the wooden planks
In it's drift to unknown rocky banks
It is this peace from within the sea
Which releases the pains inside of me?

The storms of life has driven this ship
Across the tides which seem to leap
Beyond a course of no remorse
Holding steady I explore a new source

Within the realms of this foreign port
My ship lays anchor it's time to sort
Between the narrows lays my choice
For in this trek I've found rejoice

Written by; Roland R. Ruiz
January 27, 2010

Sacred Key

2010-02-02T08:00:00.000-06:00

Between the shadows of our tomorrow
Lay clouds of peace we long to see
This war has tested the metal within the sadness of our sorrows
Having no end in sight, the door is locked we have no key

Still we search for what eludes us for these many years
Now our track has been modified towards another land
Where solemn regrets are shed along with many tears
Marching to an endless madness, in efforts to stop this band

Who comes to steal our youth away, along with the ones who guide
The horrors we have seen before, from the ghost of another war
Stealing the very best from the Mothers who do provide
The sons and daughters we hold so dear, from those we do deplore

Now we approach the eve of a New Year, what is to come our way?
Will our troops find the bearded one, the leader of this hate?
Or will the tortures of war, come again upon our watery bay
I pray to God no harm shall come, I pray for another fate

Hoping peace will come this year, in bringing our soldiers home
So we can live like once we did, but that can never be
For we're in a holy war, its tentacles stretch and roam
We can only pray our God, holds the sacred key

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
December 11, 2009

Dream Weaver

2010-01-21T20:33:00.004-06:00

I am a weaver of sad dreams that are stitched inside my soul
Bringing memories of forgotten pains so starkly yet so bold
Wondering if my written phrases will strike a chord or too
I write to calm the strife in a world we call a zoo

To those who seek contentment in a sea of just repose
I hope to bring containment in the stanzas I compose
Remember the peace we seek, lies inside the written words
For they come within a heart, which beats with an urgent surge

To release the pressure of the day, a price we all must pay
For our Earth is in much trouble totally in dismay
If only words could solve the problems of a globe in disarray
What harmony would we impart to those who have a say

For it's the thoughts from dreamers which are held at bay
You'll find creative answers to the questions existing today
So in the nights that's left to me, I'll continue to weave my dreams
Hoping God will hear the pleas between the tangled seams

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
January 13, 2010

Vow of Love

2010-01-09T06:39:00.002-06:00

(In the years to come, he'll remember)

There is a fragrance which flows within the warmness of your glow
Casting shadows of remorse from the winds that swirl and blow
For I've been awaken by the loneliness of despair
From bitterness reflected off the destiny we once shared

It comes in deep vigils in the hollows of a captured heart
Like a scent known but to lovers who promised never to part
Flowing with passions of remembrance sparked by touching lips
I cry to the tune of a lonely melody of long forgotten bliss

In my walk in the dark with only dreams to touch your thoughts
I realize thru tears the fears, I should have never sought
Becoming a part of my foolish ways which lead me to stray
In search of another to please, why I couldn't say

So now I pay the reaper for this broken vow of love
He comes in sordid dreams I try so hard to shove
Bringing tasteless smell in the air not meant to forget
Of all the lingering memories I deeply regret

For in these scarlet ribbons which adorns your auburn hair
Reside the mournful feelings which we will never share
So I'll keep inside of me wherever I will go
The sentiments of one who lost the warmness of your glow

Written by Roland R. Ruiz
January 5, 2010

Serenity

2010-01-06T03:13:00.002-06:00

I wake to the hues of the morning sunlight
The moon, the stars, the rising mist
Pass serenely from the shadows which reach into the night
Leaving deep and lasting impressions from the cradle of this abyss

With messages from a guardian I'll soon turn into words
For that how thoughts arrive fading within my dreams
For they bring so many memories bound with many cords
I'll sort what comes my way between the jagged seams

Problems untied I've learned to caress with tender loving care
We who impart with similar thoughts ride a familiar track
A place of calm comprising serenity wee try so hard to share
So to those who ride along this road try never to look back

For the past contains only the history of a long forgotten page
It's what lies ahead that brings the challenge in the hue of a new day
Riding towards oblivion, we seek an opening from this cage
Upon this highway we've come to trek, I hope to find a way

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
December 14, 2009

St. Nick

2009-12-23T11:00:00.004-06:00

Into the darkness of the cold north sky
Riding upon the northern winds which cry
Here comes Santa in his sleigh with gifts for one and all
With Rudolph in the lead high above the flying gulls

He steers this vessel of happiness with tender loving care
After all it's a job he does but once a year
Well rested he leads the other reindeer
To children filled with anticipation and cheer

For St. Nick is the patriot saint for those young at heart
He comes to soothe the pains and fears
Which at times drives us so far apart
He's the consciousness which shows we care

Now this is Christmas, a time to reflect
Upon a new dawn we soon to caress
We look for forgiveness for us to ingest
A place of redemption no thought to regress

It's the children of this world that holds the key of peace
For Santa brings more than gifts in the joy of his call
To each of you who share this site with me
Merry Christmas, Happy New Year, may God be with you all

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
Dec. 23, 2009

Another Dawn

2009-12-19T03:25:00.002-06:00

Dedicated: to a river warrior called, Delta blue

Beyond this path called Delta Blue
Lies the memories known but to few
Lined with fears to greet the dew
We search the river's dirty hue

For signs of terror from the ones
Without remorse we seek to kill
Vengeance echoes from fallen sons
Lost in battles between the hills

Within this place a living hell
We seek the prey, the orders say
With fear we march into a jungle's cell
With hate spitting upon our hearts we'll pray

To see another dawn

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
Dec. 03, 2009

Fair Winds

2009-12-11T07:34:00.006-06:00

Fair winds and following seas
Guides a forlorn sailor home
From surging waves ride lasting deeds
Atop the swells which foam

Far and wide we track the world
On oceans cold and wild
A ship which shimmers like a pearl
We pray we'll not defile

In our sail on endless wakes
We search to seek our fine
A place of peace for our sake
Which takes us beyond time?

We hear the calmness between the bells
That rings so loud and clear
Releasing us from this magical spell
From the winds their comes a cheer

Approaching the narrows of St. John's Bay
We survived the price of another voyage
To rest, we pray, towards heaven we say
Thank you Lord, for giving us courage

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
November 27, 2009

Author's Note: During the years 1952-1953 my late
Father was stationed at Pepperrell AFB,
St. John's, Newfoundland, Canada
I've never forgotten the Narrows of St. John's Bay

Our Nature

2009-12-04T18:17:00.003-06:00

Inside the window of time
Within the words we know as rhyme
Lies a love so well defined
It comes in dreams like mystical chimes

To make us dance sometimes pine
Of what was forbidden in what we sought
It's not often one will shine
In the sculptured words we thought were lost

Writing to convey secrets within our hearts
To others who share these thoughts
At times we hit a nerve with what we impart
Impressions can be like grains of salt

Sometimes taken most often mislaid
But we as poets prod on it's our nature
Not worrying if our stanzas will fade
In a poetic sense our words becomes the feature

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
November 12, 2009

The Key

2009-11-27T14:02:00.004-06:00

There is a world within my mind
Where I do seldom go
Which come in dreams when I'm asleep
Beneath the painted stars which glow

A haunting place each time I visit
Mystical in every way
But dawn brings me home again
Ending this heavenly stay

It's not often one can feel
The sculptured words of antiquity
If only I could find the key
Unlocking the fate that's sealed

Within the whispering shifting sands
What sights my eyes would see
As I walk towards the silence to pray
What graceful thoughts I hope to convey

Inside the windows of time
Lies a love so well defined
Clasped inside the hands of one so kind
Resides the destiny we hope to find

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
Nov. 20, 2009

Richly Given

2009-11-11T15:45:00.003-06:00

In Memory: Poetry Masters of old

There is a quiet wind that blows
Across the vestiges of one's soul
Marching to rhythm so effortlessly it flows
Whispering softly of reality to the zesty and the bold

For desires of engraving, like the poetry masters of old
Who write of stark beauty, in words I'll never know
Throwing caution out the window, I surge into the cold
Taking pen in hand composing, from the caverns of my soul

Caring not if rejected as a writer who knows not rhyme
For I'm a want a be poet, a dreamer of the real
Finding favor in the stanzas emerging from my mind
Posting to a web site, which accepts these words of zeal

Sharing with a gladden heart this gift towards the living
Taking care not to worry, about the currents that surge my way
Thankful for the inner peace which has been richly given
With dreams of being a relic from yonder yesteryear, what thoughts I could convey?

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
November 3, 2009

Real Time

2009-11-05T23:57:00.002-06:00

It's not the writings from my yesterdays
That makes me who I am
It's what's to come in my tomorrows
Which reflects in the man I portray?

So I'll take wheat been consigned my way
For the betterment of this life
Will merge to what's yet to come
praying only the good shall follow

There are lessons one can learn from strife
In our remaining days
For those who remember the past
Opens the soul to reality

To all who read between these lines
A solemn creature will emerge
A throw back to real time
Somewhat lost but not forgotten

The time is now my mind is free
It's the way I wish to be
For I've found the key
Which unlocks the door?

Where a peaceful heart resides
It beats with a single purpose
To shine a light into the dark
Which contains the best of me?

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
October 21, 2009

Devil's Blight

2009-10-23T18:07:00.003-06:00

In Memory: The late Hollywood actor Vincent Price & Pop Star legend Michael Jackson

From the darkness of the night

Lies a secret place of fright

Known to us as the devil’s blight

Wakes us to an ugly sight

In dreams we tend to fight

But in the end it flares and bites

Wakes us to a ghastly site

Wishing we could find the light

To make this evil a lesser mite

To send to hell what’s comes tonight

To bring us back too pure delight

I pray to God with all my might

To bring me home and hold me tight

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz

Oct. 18, 2009

Four Winds

2009-10-16T17:52:00.005-06:00

Dedicated:
To a special Lady who paints rainbows with her words

The greatest gift a poet could give

Is the shatter the darkness with written words
Compassionate memories which makes us want to live
Touching thoughts within our destiny we try so hard to purge

Dwelling deep within ourselves letters begin to merge
A gathering of cries as mellowing minds begin a lofty surge
Bringing forth calmness in synonyms not meant to mar
Placed into stanzas they reveal just who we are

As the four winds blow across a sea so ever blue
The banter of friendship resides in rainbow's imbues
Stirring a warmth within our hearts
Spreading a glow in the smiles we impart

So take heed to all who share this special gift
It's given to those who compose with tender loving care
From the shadowy vestige of the highest mountain cliff
We'll caress ones heart and soul in the words we write to share

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
October 7, 2007

Lost Forgotten Rhyme

2009-10-10T03:34:00.002-06:00

Woven into the patterns of a lost forgotten rhyme
Resides the answer to a riddle half hidden in my mind
Secrets hashed between the seams of never ending schemes
Of the passion dearly held within the darkness of my dreams

Enticing fragments from sad memories to soothe an aching heart
Releasing the rapture of true light as I watch our love depart
Thinking if by changing would our hands entwine again
Like it did when we were courting, when slowly our love began

Will the specter of our yesterdays be the embodiment of drifting ways?
As we soar towards new goals without each other to have a say
So I'll take the unanswered riddle which is wrapped around my soul
As we leave in separate directions on a lonely road so cold

Remember well my dearest the passions we once embraced
For I hope you'll find the answer to what we left unlaced
As I seek an unknown territory without a clue to what I'll find
Knowing so well the sadness, from a lost forgotten rhyme

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
October 4, 2009

The Realms of Time

2009-10-03T01:01:00.003-06:00

Dedicated: To those who have lost a partner thru death, and trying to cope with a new reality

There are nights which brings the sweetness of long forgotten love
They come when I'm feeling low, lost in a moonlit cove
Like the colors of a fading rainbow, dissolving into tears
I track a lonely shoreline with just my hidden fears

Which echoes to the waves of a lost forgotten chime?
A place of peace along with calm inside the realms of time
Within the twilight lies the nectar of what we held so close
Caressingly touching the rapture, we strike a handsome pose

Hand in hand we thread the sands with memories to guide the way
Of all we've shared between the years what love we did display
I take you in my arms my dear before you fade away
To kiss your tender lips with care, in our walk along the bay

I wake to a sunlit morning facing an empty pillow
Struggling with my life which seems to be so hollow?
For I'll face another day without you waiting for the night
To take me to your loving arms, where the dark turns into light

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
September 23, 2009

Safe Harbor

2009-09-25T18:44:00.002-06:00

Could it be the very structure of this world?
Be the cause of all the treasured dreams I've seen
Into the sultry sea we sail, enticed by the winds which swirl
Navigating into the abyss standing fast on this brigantine

Watching the distant releasing a welcome sunrise
Dispersing the darkness bringing the light the embodiment of such glee
Much joy the salty spray does make, across the painted skies
Riding memories emerged in currents, we trek towards the lee

Voyaging to a goal I hope to make, a safe harbor for our souls
Remembering my fellow shipmates the one I lost at sea
There faces linger tears still fall, from the shadows unmerciful cold
Thank the Lord there's just a few, these men of honoree

With the knowledge as Captain I was never overwhelmed
In guiding ship and crew from this vast domain safely back to poet
Tough decisions are often made by the one who mans the helm
As the harbor breaks this magical spell, to God and crewmates, I'll pay court

Sailing into St. John's Bay brings comfort to our souls
For we bested the majestic sea avoiding the dangerous shoals
Completing another voyage arriving with ship and crew intact
Resting we'll renew ourselves, in wait of a new course to track

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
September 05, 2009

Autumn Breeze

2009-09-18T18:28:00.004-06:00

I hear the autumn breeze approaching

Ridding us of the heat the cause of much commotion

As summer gusts begin to fade

We've set a Texas record even in the shade

A fact many Texans will hate to hear, or come to love

Totaling fifty-nine days of 100 degrees and above

Just enough to shake ones head a test of true validity

Upon a state known for its southern hospitality

Not to mention the lack of moisture another record of shame

The dryness of this year makes El Niño take the blame

But as I've said before brighter days lie ahead

Those of us who share this land our fears will soon be shed

When autumn brings cooler air hopefully with rain

Changing the texture of the ground releasing us from our pain

That's what we're in need of now

To forget this season make it bow

For those of us born and raised in this Lone Star state

This season will truly be remembered etched into our fate

Weather like this plagues us ever so once in awhile

To this wide-eyed country boy, it's been one hell of a trial

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz

September 15, 2009

Wretched Soul

2009-09-13T07:11:00.002-06:00

I'll share with you a secret I've come to learn with life
There is only roughness on the lanes of petty strife
Filled with curbs, with many obstacles obstructing our point of view
As we run this ragged gauntlet, like members of a ghastly crew

Who sail towards a destiny at times without a heart?
Seeking ways to break the cycle aboard a ship without a chart
To save what is so precious but the touch we feel is cold
Thinking how much the cost will be we sell our wretched soul

I know I am a sinner, I shall live a brief existence
For life can be long in living, and as short as an instant
So take a moment to reflect on what you have become
Decide just what is needed to change the total sum

If you feel there's more to living on the other side of death
Feel free to accept the one who died for in the whisper of his breath
Lies the smoothness on a road, with seamless curbs paved with gold
Leading to lasting majesty filled with the love he warmly holds

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
August 23, 2009

Brighter Days

2009-09-10T14:44:00.004-06:00

There is a calling that thrives within my tortured soul
It wakes me to imaginary dreams on an ocean so far away
Aboard a ship beneath the mast, enveloped by the cold
I strain to hear amid the fog the sounds of a distant buoy

A remembrance of forgotten times which lie beyond the realm
Of waves surreal fearlessly dancing between the cresting swells
Astounded I ride upon this painted sea, with hands around the helm
Praying the glittering sunlight will not wake me from this spell

There is a hope within ones heart
For brighter days to come
To change the gloom which fills the cart?
In the march to a beating drum

But now the bygone days have passed
I'll accept what falls my way
Waiting for the sun to set, hoping the nighttime last
Just long enough to take me back to where I have a say

So I'll reminisce of the past as I close my eyes to sleep
Where a ragging sea within a gale rejoices me no end
Though the years have passed me by I still have tales I'll share and keep
For I'm the master who steers this ship, towards the howling wind

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
August 18, 2009

Startled Dreams

2009-08-15T04:06:00.003-06:00

So many times we've seen the look
That defines just who we are
Arriving in startled dreams, like chapters from a book
Wakening hidden feelings, between the twilight of the stars

A gathering of forgotten memories to calm a restless heart
Complications of strife we'll carry to our graves
Hoping before life ends the hurt we caused departs
That's the way it is on a road which has been paved

By many tears shed from those who lead the way
For life is never easy it comes with many perils
The road to eternity has a price for those who have a say
It sings of songs for forgiveness by Angels in their carols

The cost for entering the gates of forever
Simpler then you'll think to imagine
Just believe in the Father and the Son, the bearer
Of the Holy Spirit who'll cleanse our souls of sin

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
August 10, 2009

Edge of Forever

2009-08-08T03:58:00.003-06:00

There is a chapel of repose
Upon an island to eternity
A quite respite to decide and choose
To embrace infinity

We're born to sail this ragged sea
Filled with waves to engulf desires
With open heart we seek the key
That will guide us from this mire

In the course of one's reflections
Lies decisions hastily made in strife
Many will fail to make corrections
In their voyage to another life

As this ship sails to the edge of forever
Time is found which has no end
Those who wander are the givers
A few we'll know as friends

Many will pass beyond the edge
To some they will be missed
While others will thread the ledge
Afraid of the maddening abyss

By and by our trek will have an ending
For we'll be judged by our creator
Hoping goodness will be the binding
Which allows us thru the gate?

So in the course of this solemn trip
Felt deeply in our soul
We'll steer the rudder of our ship
Towards the brightness beyond the cold

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
August 4, 2009

Deranged

2009-08-01T05:29:00.003-06:00

If the sky could shed tears
From the harm which has been struck
By mankind's controlling fears
Clouds would be like tear ducts

Crying waves of total despair
What pain would be shared?
To those below who stare?
At a world in need of repair

The years have took its toll
It's felt within our bones
The aches and pains we're told
Come in pollutants from our dome

Is their time for us to change?
To fix the damaged caused
From all we've deranged
For the clock has no pause

It moves towards a fate
We control our destiny
It can never be too late
For in the clearness of the sky

Stands infinity

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
July 23, 2009

Fabric of Time

2009-07-25T09:27:00.002-06:00

Is death the breeze which blows away?
The very fabric of time
Will it come quickly like the winds which sway?
In the hidden notes of a forgotten chime

Within the silence of a throbbing heart
Exists a calmness the nature of necessity
I wonder will this destiny soon depart
Towards clouds of peace created by reality

Opening a gate to the unknown
Exposing a lonely trodden road
I've never traveled before yet knowning I'm alone
Bedazzled and feeling the pressure from the load

I trek beyond my mortal fears
Towards a goal I hope to make
Amid the moisture of flowing tears
I take control for my very sake

Hearing the death knell of the breeze
It shakes the outer edge of time
Forcing the trees to drop their leaves
Enticing my soul to wither and pine

Leaving this place of contentment
I'll gather new thoughts within this ride
To all that waits in wonderment
With open eyes and sorrowful pride

I wait to greet my fate

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
July 13, 2009

Scarlet Streams

2009-07-18T04:29:00.002-06:00

There's a silent hush upon her face
Half hidden within sweet dreams
Memories lost in a maddening chase
Across the scarlet streams

Conceived in being a righteous lass
A country girl who wears no crown
She grew into a woman of class
In her move to jolly London town

In a solemn attitude so different than before
She learns it's not quite the same
As she bolts and locks the door
Wondering what price is paid for fame?

Now the days are spent alone
No time for fun just work
Recalling the times back home
Questions begin to lurk

One day she wakes yearning
From what was left behind
Thoughts from the past are burning
Within her tearful mind

Reflected from the mirror lines appear
Showing the effects of time
As the days turn into years
Teary eyes begins to pine

For what will never be
From all she left behind
Greeting another morn she turns the key
As the sun begins to shine

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
July 11, 2009

Silent Call

2009-07-03T18:07:00.003-06:00

Dedicated: Those who work & retire

In the specters of the lonely night
Lies the dreams of hidden fears
Coming in riddles without much light
Struggling to maintain, I'll shed no tears

For what befalls befits this soul
I've earned my fate paid my dues
From this heat is felt the cold
Now it's time to take the cue

To drive towards the falling sun
To end what I've always done
Now I've become the total sum
Of a stranger who has been shunned

Time waits on no man
Has a calling all its own
In its move across the sands
Relentlessly it seeks a home

It catches up to one and all
Exploding upon the scene
It whispers a silent call
Curtailing a fading dream

No matter what will flow
From my remaining days
I'll accept the winds which blow
In my trek towards the setting rays

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
July 1, 2009

Who Am I

2009-06-26T20:46:00.003-06:00

Who am I to tell you
Why the stars shine so bright
Who am I to explain
Why the day turns into night

Why do I even ponder
The reasons for this plight
For I'm a non-believer
I seek a torch to light

From the darkness of this cavern
That been a part of me
I crave the freedom from the pain
Which fills this empty soul

To walk among the righteous
To view what I can't see
Hoping to shed the weakness
Which shields me from the fold

For the many unanswered questions
Which keeps me at bay
Until I become a convert
a sheep among the flock

To roam and be protected
By the shepherd who leads the way
Then the many mysterious wonders
With a key he shall unlock

Enlightening the shadows of who I am
For my queries have been paved
By the blood of the Son who is the lamb
Within his grace my soul be saved

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
May 31, 2009

Final Moments

2009-06-20T02:10:00.002-06:00

Can a heart be lost forsaken?
In a guise we call despair
Will the hurt given and taken
Be forgiven with loving care

Or is it just a fading memory
One's life to cry in shame
A cover to hide the mystery
For the reasons igniting the flames

So much does come my way
In the autumn of my life
Hoping it's not to late to pray
To rid these pains of strife

I'll ask to be forgiven
From the life I've defiled
For the hurt I caused the living
Brings repentance from this child

I know of only one
To take this pain away?
From the Father comes the son
Risen from the grave

I hear an Angel coming
Its name we know as death
My final hours are looming
I feel a shortness of breath

In my final moments
I'll reach to touch his hands
With grace he'll offer sonnets
In our walk across the sands

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
June 7, 2009

Dreams One Cast

2009-06-12T15:01:00.003-06:00

It's said time a reflection of one's self
Captured memories treasures from the past
Dangerous yet alluring sometimes deeply felt
Best remembered in the dreams one cast

Upon this path we walk, we age
Leaving our youth behind
Like a bird hoping to leave its cage
We thrive to fly with clearness of mind

But that's not always the case
For life comes with ragged edges
Bumps we feel to line our face
Emoting fears we transverse the ledges

Afraid of what's below
We stare straight ahead
Creating a facade to proudly show
A cover easily painted and shed

Now as the gates of reality nears
It's time to close this page
Bringing an end to whimsical cheers
Of my ambitions of becoming a sage

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
May 25, 2009

Tides of Time

2009-05-22T05:30:00.002-06:00

Will shameful desires be found in the specters of remorse?

Is the boundary which we share just a memory from the past

In bending heart and soul, will moments expand so dreams will last?

As we seek the flowing streams along this rugged course

A Rose by a rambling brook

In the early misty morn

Brings the sharpness of a daunting look

From a face so weathered and worn

Like the many straining shadows, to dash this urge of mine?

Our roving eyes come to meet, across a crowded room

Bringing back forgotten thoughts, as memories begin to pine

Of the love we once enjoyed as the past begins to loom

Wishing reverting passion would slowly commence to stray

Trying to hide the feelings, I stare another way

You with your husband, me with my wife

Slowly turning towards each other, we smile to cover the strife

Concealing the sultry feelings we shared so long ago

I whisper to my beloved, it's best we do take leave

Wondering as the door is closed could she possibly know

Not a word was as we drove home thru the rustling leaves

But deep inside I know she knows the carnal truth

Of the tryst, I tried to hide amid the tides of time

Written by Roland R. Ruiz

May 10, 2009

If

2009-05-15T16:52:00.002-06:00

If a portrait of my dreams could be painted
Upon the shadows of your thoughts
What colors would yours eyes reflect?
Within the shelter of my heart

If a token of my love could embrace
The beauty of your soul
How long would time let us entwine?
As we sail towards the stars, beyond the Milky Way

If I could hold you close to me
As the storms of fears appear
What calm would be exposed
As we shed the sadden tears

From so many memories
Which clouds the sullen skies?
Our caressing touch would spark a light
To help us find the way

Towards eternal bliss arm in arm
We'll search towards a goal
An interlude to put a close
To all that ever been

As we dance into the canyons
Which holds serenity?
I'll peer within your shadows
To dreams of yesteryear

If only I were not so shy
What bliss would we create?
In our walk towards our fate
But alas it is too late

As I watch you drift away
Into the silence of the night

Written by Roland R. Ruiz
May 7, 2009

Warmth of Love

2009-05-08T18:18:00.002-06:00

It's odd how the changing season
Brings an abruptness to the air
May brings the nesting birds and the warmth
To make plants grow

Makes one think that winter has left
But that's not how it fares
Living in Texas, spring is short-lived
Wishing it were slow

Having friends in England, I chat with saying
It's cold so awful frigid
I wonder how they would feel
If every day were 95 degrees and above

That's how it will be this week
The humidity just as rigid
Now the heat has come to roost
For this I have no love

My friends it's just going to get hotter and dryer
For sure that is no fun
I've seen in my lifetime in this Lone Star State
21 straight days of 100 and above

So to those of you who enjoy
The ups and downs of an English sun
Remember good old puddles, which in a matter of hours
Will see that rising star
Spreading the warmth of unrelenting love

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
May 04, 2009

Forgotten Secrets

2009-05-01T19:08:00.002-06:00

Restrained amid the canyons of many sad regrets
Lie forgotten secrets I keep hidden within my wretches dreams
They come inside the darkness not trying to digress
Signals from the past dodging the nothingness between the schemes

They ride upon memories I'm not able to resist
Upon an ever widening cavern, I seek what is not there
Enlacing the passion much revered, I remember our last kiss
The mingle of fears in our final caress, tortures to hard to bear

Compressing my thoughts between the stars and the rising Moon above
Did I throw my heart to the wind, in my walk around your love
Now that time has riddled the ages, I ponder where I went wrong
Or is our destiny to pass as ships into the mist and fog

I'll wonder what awaits beyond the crest as the years begins to fade
Will it bring a close to the loneliness as the road begins to narrow
Do I dare wish the feeling of emptiness to remain within the shade
For tomorrow brings another day and the coldness from the sorrow

While the tears shed for past mistakes rules a heart so barren and cold
I'll have to live in the choice I made for now the time is late
This helps to decide my destiny in the ride towards my fate
In chosen a life without a partner conveys the hollowness of my soul

For in this void, I've come to rue

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
April 24, 2009

Ribbons of Pink Lace

2009-04-25T03:21:00.003-06:00

33rd Wedding Anniversary Poem, for Evangeline
(04-24-76)

As the sun begins to set between the late evening dew
My eyes paint a portrait from the reflections of your face
Across the canvas of the sky with brush strokes of golden hues
I create sparkling rainbows holding ribbon of pink lace

To drape upon your loveliness, which I carry within my heart
As I smother you with kisses for you take my breath away
Each moment of our closeness will ensure we'll never part
In our voyage amid the struggles a reminder for us to pray

As the stars fade into the twilight
The sun will rise to show the way
Towards the passion of our solemn plight
Sheer beauty expounds in the words I say

For the total sum of commitment is needed in sharing this reality
On a path we follow together in search of eternal bliss
Entwining our lives as never before, we seek a true destiny
For in this trek towards forever, our love will never cease

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
April 10, 2009

A Father's Love

2009-04-18T03:11:00.002-06:00

Dedicated: Those who have felt the shame and pain of child abuse

There is something in the air
I feel it in my bones
As I lie dying on this bed
Feeling empty so alone

I hear sounds from the sky
Not sure of what they are
How I wish for death to come
To release me from this lie

For all these many years
There's been a part of me
I've kept quite due to fears
So ashamed it made me feel

For hatred still embraces
The very fabric of my soul
It comes to me at night
In the horrors I must face

Never been one of faith
Lost it in my youth
Cannot believe a God
Would allow such abuse

To please my tearful wife
A reverend paid a visit
With a bible between his hands
Saying beyond death there's another life

He said the price to enter
Is to believe in God above
To accept his Son as our redeemer
That's all that must be done

So I took his words to savor
There must be something else
For I fear to die alone
I'll ask for a graceful favor

Remove the hatred I carry
Warm this heart so cold
Forgive my sinful ways
For my time begins to fold

I hear a movement in the air
An Angle is by my bed
Telling me Jesus sent him
As he reaches for my hands

He says do not fear
I've come to take you home
I'll guide you to a Father's love
Like you've never known before

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
March 24, 2009

Lone Star State

2009-04-12T05:13:00.003-06:00

It rains not much in Texas
We're known for grander things
Among them is the heat
Which beats upon the plains

There are ranches big in acres
Longhorns grazing across barbwire
Atop the coastal dunes
Wild Mustangs still run free

In April come the Bluebonnets
Giving color to the highways
A sign of Spring's arrival
To take the chill away

Right now we're in a drought
How we pray for cloud filled moisture
To fill our lakes and close the cracks
Which marks the dusty and arid land

We've come to know as home
The farmers pray the hardest
Without rain no crops to harvest
Just dry brush fills the fields

Which feeds the fire's glow
It's great to live in Texas
Don't take me wrong my friends
I am proud to be a Texan

Would live no other place
I ask this one small favor
From my friends across the sea
When you say your prayers

Would you take a second or two
To remember your friend named puddles
Who's in need of a helping hand
In bringing the rains to flow

Upon this rainless mass
Which sustains so many souls
To end the drought that taken a grip
Upon this Lone Star State

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
April 11, 2009

Note of Tranquility

2009-04-11T05:15:00.002-06:00

Dedicated: To those who suffer the anguish of Mental Illness

Have you ever thrown caution to the vestige of the wind
As you sleep within the emptiness that exists between the seams
From the stillness of the night I hear the currents begin to whine
As I walk along the shadows in the valley of my dreams

They beat a note of tranquility from a past forgotten land
In sounds profoundly surreal so alone and lost I feel
Engaging the swirling of the air I thread atop a wicked span
Balancing upon a rope called strife I seek to break this seal

For in the anguish I've acquired creates an empty base so cold
Trying to keep my sanity encased I drift to tearful sadness
From a disease known as mental illness a slow torture of the soul
Brings a rapture in the dark slowly creating fears of madness

I've learned it never mellow in the shelter of my mind
As I shift between the sane and the craziness of this world
In my wander to find a way I get bewildered without a sign
So I'll take my time in my stride to avoid the winds which swirl

Towards the sanctity of my compassion commences a gentle flow
So I'll accept with gladness what comes for me today
Traveling towards the brightness which surrounds me with a glow
Praying to my God each passing hour will bring relief this way

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
April 2, 2009

Mesenger of Love

2009-04-03T16:12:00.003-06:00

Within the silence of the night I hear the messenger of love
Bringing forgotten longings within the lyrics of our songs
It sings of magical times across a rainbow high above
Reminding us of all that's passed on a road winding and long

So often from what we share, reflects the sum of our destiny
Quenching desires, enticing the thirst which feeds our very fate
A simple kiss, a loving look, melts the ice releasing the true reality
Flooding our hearts as never before creating that mystical gate

As we go on not letting the hurt or even the tears
Stop the love within our hearts from forgetting our yesterdays
We meet each hour as if our last amid the faceless fears
Accepting the good along with the worse, we forge for another way

To a place beyond forever gleaming like the stars
Across the endless skies which lie before our eyes
It's there for all to hear in the sounds of the musical bars
Singing the sweetness of the years caressing our eternal binds

Awakening from my dreams with a calling I shall pass
Between the covers of the sheets I reach for you my love
To whisper in your ear, the yearnings of the past
For the message I convey rides on the wings of dove

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
March 20, 2009

Boundaries

2009-03-28T04:41:00.003-06:00

Boundaries

There lies in the boundaries of space and time
A substance which exits to define our very thoughts
Collimating in dreams, along with the hopes we seek to find
Turning what was lost from the pains sold and bought

As the sun arise erasing the fading stars, we face another day
A saving grace majestically increasing the total sum
Of our inner being this helps to light the way
Across this bridge we arrive, ready for the run

Avoiding the gaps, lying in wait to foil what we have done
Turning towards the flowing rainbows, which never seems to dim
We follow the waves of solitude we beat our hearts as one
As we turn towards each other our eyes cross in mystical whim

We discover the love between us, has ignited all over again
We act as once we did before, when youth was in control
But now there comes a different a total new beginning
For in the boundaries of this love, our joys will we console

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
March 13, 2009

What is It?

2009-03-20T01:10:00.006-06:00

What is it?

That takes your breath away

In your wake to the morning light
That comes before all else
As the sun befalls the day

What is it?
That makes you feel surreal
In your trails and ordeals
As you go into the night
Not knowing of the plight

What is it?
That shows not lasting fear
In the middle of a crowd
With or without tears
Or in total solitude

What is it?
That carries you at times
When you're feeling oh so low
Thinking all is lost
You search until you find

The answer to your prayers
It lies before your eyes
It come without disguise
What is it?

Love

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
March 07, 2009

Mortal Time

2009-03-14T02:29:00.003-06:00

Between the shifting sand
Ticks the seconds of mortal time
Residing in the fringes of the land
In whispers atop the lonesome pine

It beats the sounds of forgotten memories
Slowly approaching, almost divine
Preaching the sanctity within the breeze
Drawing us closer to our deep design

If one listens very closely
To the melodies in our grieves
It sings of being lonely
As autumn befalls the leaves

Like droplets in an hourglass
Slowly flowing grain by grain
Much as life without a pass
Brings the tears which holds the pain

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
March 1, 2009

The Legacy

2009-02-27T18:05:00.004-06:00

Have you ever wondered about the legacy?
Your written words will leave behind
For those gifted with prose who write so graciously
Ideas are formed within the heart to stimulate the mind

Like an artist who paints, a cantor who sings
A player of musical notes resounding with magical chimes
Brings a sparkle of delight much as regal kings
Convey to their kingdoms with rhyme

Much can be said of the gifts received
Dispensed at the moment of life
Molded with love so well conceived
Upon the traveled byways paved in the ways of strife

Not all will realize the treasures held within the soul
Some will end the trip, without utilizing their gifts
While others will leave lasting memories so fruitful and bold
To those who'll share the essence in this wayward drift

I say it's been an honor to read and hear your starlit dreams
For you convey within your thoughts the way it ought to be
The words you leave behind will light the dark between the seams
Imparting everlasting marks engraved for all to read, hear and believe

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
February 10, 2009

Voyage of Love

2009-02-13T05:08:00.002-06:00

In the voyage of love amid a sea of near calm
There echoes a melody we have long to be near
It comes inside the dew, within the twilight of time
Sounds from a love bird which sings without fear

It whispers of friendship you have given to me
For all the years shared united as one
In hard times more often then not, we had to agree
To settle our differences much work without fun

Nevertheless, thru it all we have come to belong
Sharing in life as a good husband and wife
As we reach the end of our journey we hear the sweet songs
From the heavenly birds which bring the sweetness of life

Look ahead my soul mate no tears will be cried
For the best is not over in our search for the end
Prepare to debark we will say no good-byes
For the quest in this journey, lies without sin

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
February 02, 2009

Restless Blight

2009-01-30T17:48:00.003-06:00

Do storms come our way?
As we drift into the night?
In search of hope to fill the day
To ignite this restless blight

Could changing minds, bring anxiety
That tends to make us fight
Upon our canvases we paint calamity
Which points towards this fright?

Will time forestall our sacred means?
Can love invade our rigid hearts?
To live and learn despite the lean
We share together what we impart

Not all is lost within our dreams
As we try so hard to hold back the sneers
It is plain to see, just look around between the seams
You will view a world much engulfed with fears

Caused by actions of distrust
By leaders with cryptic minds
Filtered by decaying rust, many not even caring
If their grief brings flows of tears

Amongst the sanctity of our tomorrows
Lines the clouds which holds the calm
Exposing pathways of forgotten sorrows
Where lives the peace within our palms

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
January 26,, 2009

Retirement

2009-01-23T02:12:00.001-06:00

I have been wondering what has caused my recent fears
On leaving behind a working life which has become a measure of me
For the better part of forty years, I've enjoyed more laughs then tears
It is the unknown winds, which stirs the clouds of doubt I'm unable to see

There is an air of uncertainty, deep within my soul
In my pace towards retirement in wait of the day, I am dreading to greet
Like nothing I have known before could I be getting old
Is age and retiring synonymous, when in the end they come to meet

It seems it was just yesterday I started down the road
With youth and vigor by my side I acted ever so bold
Speeding thru life haphazardly, not worried about the load
Until I met a women with one look she stopped me cold

With a lot of luck and common sense she became my loving wife
For thirty-three years she has been my fate, I wish for nothing more
When separation comes my way will changes abate my life?
A grand dilemma envelops me, for I know not what's in store

So I will ask for help from those of you, who has faced this very struggle
Hoping to find some answers to make a calm transition
For my wife deserves much better I wish to make no trouble
I always knew this day would come, I prayed without conditions

This is the ramblings of a man
Who is afraid of growing old?
For I remember so well the days
When I was young and bold

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
January 20, 2009

Popcorn

2009-01-17T03:54:00.003-06:00

There's reasons why some poets
Can write the way they do
A few can pen words
Like pop corn popping over a hot griddle

While others will need time
As they search for rhyme beyond the stars
To be converged into a riddle
In the hunt for words to tune

There's envy in my thoughts
For the dreams which they compose
Some make it seem so easy
As they post their words of prose

To those of you who write this way
Like their is no tomorrow
I'll tip my hat to each of you
As I view with awe your power

So in the style, I've become accustomed too
Since I began to write
I'll try to unlock my mind
Which has become to rigid and tense

Hoping to find new ideas
I'll look towards the twinkling twilight
Praying to find what was lost
It lies around the bend, along the wooden fence

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
January 14, 2007

Thanks John, for lighting the way

Colors

2009-01-10T08:57:00.004-06:00

Dedicated: The many names upon the wall

There are colors in a rainbow
Every solider knows so well
The red, white and blue of the U.S. of A.
Which engraves a lasting hue

So often we forget
What the colors really mean
Just ask a battle scared veteran
Who has seen a field run red

With the living fearing dying
While the dead lay pale and white
They fight like no tomorrow
For a cause they hold so tight

To those who walk away
From the horror caused by war
Leaves a twisted drying feeling
Like a train wreck deep in hell

When finally the tour of duty
Comes to a justly end
They return not as heroes
As their Fathers did before

But as men who killed unjustly
For a cause so few believe
Older now and graying atop my balding head
Even after forty years the nightmares refuse to fade

I still remember the dying
They cry inside my dreams
I carried out my orders
Like a soldier suppose to do

While this Gyrene, remembers
The heroes left behind
With a prayer and a tear
I gaze towards that wall

Which holds the solemn names engraved
For the gallant troops who gave their all
So when that colored rainbow
Flows across the crimson sky

I'll pray it lighten
Up the gloom
Making the sky
Forever blue

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
December 23, 2008

Towards Oblivion

2008-12-26T08:00:00.004-06:00

Arriving upon this mountain top, laying bare a joyous world
I gaze toward blue skies, above a blanket of white snow
Contemplating the struggles of my self inflected wombs
Breathing deeply I wonder about what lies beyond the shadows

Thinking how to survive on this road towards oblivion
I ponder of the path I'll take in the wake of life's embrace
A solitary mountaineer I've been half my life
Climbed so many mountains it would take one's breath away

Seen the majesty of God's labors from vistas no one would believe
I've prayed atop the highest peaks, for the help he gives for free
I've never felt more at peace, until the final crest is reached
This helps to heal the problems faced, from a place below my feet

So in the shorten time I spend upon this steeply rim
I'll confess my sins as I watch the sun slowly fade into the sea
From this contrast of snow and sky dictated the road I'll take
This helps me relate as I prepare for my descend

I've come to realize the ways of life are ours alone to make
So in these words you read my friends I give you this advice
No need to climb mountains to find your way in life
Just open up your soul, and purge your hurtful sins

For when you walk into his heart
You'll know just how I feel
Your life will never be the same
As you ascend towards his grace

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
December 14, 2008

Christmas Eve on p2s

2008-12-20T02:02:00.003-06:00

Dedicated: Janet Hampson

I had a dream the other night
About poetry2share
I dreamt I was a member
With friends around the globe
It was the eve of Christmas
Not having much to do
Decided to surf the Internet
To share a thought or to
I clicked on my favorite
To see who might be browsing
I looked for fellow members
Who frequent this poetry site
No Claude from the west coast
Who offers such sound advice
No Delta Blue from Dallas
To show the ills of war
Not even rider 1951
What poems he can write
Much too my amazement
Only puddles was online
So I thought just wait awhile
Maybe someone from England
Will pop in to say hello
After all it's Christmas Eve
They can't be all at balls
Maybe Doreen will appear
To share her uplifting prose
Or John will bring another fine piece
From memories of his past
Could Mystic be not far behind
With bells to chime a song
Come on Alan, dock your boat
Bring some posts for us to read
A portrait of words
From a lady who paints
Would place my mind at ease
No Vic or even a Silverlining
To share this site with me
So I'll take this time to say
To the poets I failed to mention
Remember this is just a dream
I mean no disrespect
So I'll convey these words to you
Before I bid adieu
Merry Christmas to all
To all a good night
From this poet in Texas
Who's in love with this site

Merry Christmas & Happy New Year
Fellow members
Puddles signing off

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
December 17, 2008

Kindred Spirit

2008-12-12T14:11:00.003-06:00

Lost within the fading years
In the bleakness of the cold
Between the sorrows of my fears
Reside sad memories which I hold

Amid the solace of being alone
Inflamed by long hidden thoughts
Buried deep within my bones
Is the hurt engraved by so many faults?

I seek a solution to this query
To sanctify what I've refused to believe
Turning my sadness to something merry
A kindred spirit to take the lead

It is possible there's a higher power?
Beyond the stars in the swiftness of the fires
A God we call by name who gives us cover
From the harm caused by our reckless desires

In the unsanctified wonders of this world
I seek the intangible to explain the unreasonable
From the madness found from this elusive swirl
Creating a saving grace making us impregnable

By our transgressions he commits us to his fold
So I'll submit to all which I'm unable to see
To soothe my inner being to calm my outer soul
In hope I'm forgiving so my heart will be set free

I know not of the day or night
When I'll reach the divining end
Will ride the dark towards the light
Seeking the kindred spirit to cleanse me of my sins?

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
December 11, 2008

Bygone Days

2008-12-05T06:42:00.003-06:00

Evil seeks the quickest way
To pierce a parting heart
When love turns to cinder
To all we did impart

Between two lost lovers
We look to find our way
Back to what we held
Forged from bygone days

Odd the way wickedness
Can work into one's life
Turning feelings sour
Making a loveless wife

I as your husband
Share half the blame
Should have seen it coming
Did nothing to stop the shame

Could it been done different
With smiles instead of jeers
Creating a different destiny
Without the fears and tears

Now we part, nothing left
To keep and hold together
As we take our separate roads
In search of something better

So I'll bid farewell to you
As I watch you disappear
Wishing the best comes your way
To what will soon appear

Fading into the silence
We'll hold our memories
Remembering what was lost
From a time so unforgiving

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
December 4, 2008

A Dark Boding Place

2008-11-27T21:09:00.004-06:00

In Memory

Simon Ruiz (1922-1997)
Diagnosed with prostate cancer
November, 1996
Died April, 1997

There is a dark boding place
Lying deep within our minds
It holds the truth of lost despair
This comes when we're sublime

In youth there are no worries
We're here to live a life
Nevertheless time forges into a title
Known by the name called strife

One will always know
When youth has mislaid its gleam
As we age upon highways
Filled with sad forgotten dreams

These are the ramblings of a man
Who remembers another's fate
His wisdom shall go unanswered
Only cries are heard, for in the winds they fade

So I'll keep within my heart
The tenderness I'll always miss
Thanking him from the silence
Of my nightly bliss

But my life is not quite over
I've seen the glinting mask of death
Walked away with just a scare
And a much keener inner faith

Thank you Dad for reminding me
There's more to life than what is taught
Death is not the true finality
Just the beginning of future thoughts

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
November 24, 2008

A Child’s Prayer

2008-11-22T10:40:00.003-06:00

The time has come my little one
To show you how to pray
You're four years old
My, the days have flown

Gosh, you've really grown
It's best to get you started
So listen very closely
To all I have to say

Look towards the open window
Above the sky between the stars
Lies the home our Father built
Where all our prayers are sent

There's a house all ready and waiting
For each of us when it's time for us to leave
But for know my dear don't worry
Just learn to speak to God

Let the words flow from your heart
For he knows you very well
Tell him how much you love him
For the life he's given you

Ask him to protect you always
When you sleep into the night
Ask for his forgiveness
When you forget to call his name

But most of all remember
He's always their for you
So in the closing of your prayer
Ask God to bless us all

Especially Mommy and Daddy
Who keeps you warm with love
For our thoughts for you will never leave
As you walk into your life

If you do this every night
In your prayers to God above
His love for you will only grow
Each moment of the day

So now you've learned just how to pray
It's your heart he listens too
Until he calls you home
To the house he's built for you

Remember what I taught you
It's meant for you alone
Until God gives you a child
You'll teach to pray with love

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
October 27, 2008

Written Dreams

2008-11-15T04:51:00.006-06:00

Dedicated: Poetry2Share

From my wayward travels
As time follows a precious path
You touch my heart with your caring thoughts
In the looks you turn my way

The rainbow that carries our hopes and prayers
Becomes stronger each second of the day
This helps renew the beauty of the arch?
Which stretches between our souls, across this wide divide?

While the ebb and flow of friendships developed
In our march thru life's embrace
Reminds me of the gifts received
By the power from a higher place

To those who shares this special treasure
I send my best your way
May you live a lifetime, filled with love
For the many words shared, in our earthly stay

May God bless all who make Poetry2Share
A very exceptional website
Where our hearts are turned to tears
When we post our written dreams

Written by Roland R. Ruiz
July' 2006

Whispers in the Wind

2008-11-08T13:27:00.003-06:00

I hear whispers in the wind, which beats to the music of forgotten dreams
Like subdued echoes from a lonely past, alluring, yet without means

Forging together what once was one, we tread the turbulent waters
Wishing our frail shape, with multiple cracks, will hold together not falter

But time will be the tormentor of what once we held as hope
Bringing another factor called change, between the ridges and the slopes

Funny how love can float beyond the realm of delayed commotions
Like a floundering ship, filled with lost connections and empty emotions

We respond as one would think, realizing in the blink of an eye
Of the love we once held, it's their to be found, in the twilight of the sky

For all these many years together, should not be all for naught
Let's work together, in bringing a close, to our wayward faults

For in the whispers of the wind, can bring solace to one's hearts
If we listen very carefully to the harmony, it imparts

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
October 23, 2008

The Spider's Leer

2008-11-01T05:11:00.003-06:00

Like a spider which weaves a web
To catch a prey to nourish
I lay besides you, in search of dreams
To calm the tension, which flourish?

Depression seems to follow me
On the fast lanes of life's embrace
Locked within a cage, I feel forgotten concerns so tightly encased
Imprisoned without a key I search for a way to escape

Remembering the sweet times we've shared together
Brings my frail sanity, to a near normal state
Fearing the worst I pray for a miracle to happen
For losing you will be the end, is this to be my fate

I've thought of what might be done
To life this yoke and spare the heavy burden
One bullet from a chamber would cure all my ills
Ceasing the pain turning the tide, sadly closing the curtain

But this is not the way to go, for their must be another solution
For I shall not become the prey, of the spider's leer
Faith shall lead me back again to the fold of your loving arms
Where we shall live as never before, as we shout with joyful cheer

From this tangle mesh in the weave we have sewn
Will deter us from becoming the prey to the creatures of the night
For the love which was lost from within our hearts will soon be released
Igniting a flaming passion once again, in a web of sheer delight

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
October 4, 2008

Troubled Borders

2008-10-23T02:51:00.008-06:00

Towards the troubled borders of never ending schemes
Lies the failed and fractured failures of unrelenting dreams

It's seen in the pretense of lies so well told from the tenures of longevity
By the ones who time after time we elect, to guide our nation's sovereignty

From the branches of the government we hear only their faltered fears
They talk so smooth, between their guile they make us forget our tears

All the while we're lead to believe there's hope within their charm
But don't be fooled, if they cared they would vote to end the harm

Now we're about the make a choice, in the election of a leader with new desires
Will we elect the veteran who served his country with honor, in his time under fire?

He comes with much experience in the years he has served
Or will our nation choose a youthful man, will he be able to turn the curb

We who live in the United States have a dilemma in the coming days
In deciding to whom to give our vote it's a price we must pay

We'll set the course for the coming years, when we leave that ballot box
For a new President to steer us straight, he'll need to be smart as a fox

So pray with me, for those of you who live beyond the sea
To what befalls us in November, will leave a lasting effect

You'll feel and clearly see

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
October 11, 2008

Fantasy of Fate

2008-10-10T02:52:00.007-06:00

Between the shelters of reality, inside the fantasy we call fate
Lies the essence of all dreams, beyond the shadows of the gate

Like leaves tumbling from their branches amid the currents of the air
Shows the changing of the seasons as fall begins to flare

Life can be compared to what is shared in time's embrace
For nothing last forever, as our youth begins to race

Faster, faster then one can imagine, lines are formed upon our face
This comes in the way we live on highways we all chase

Life is short enough, why speed to the end of the road
As I watch from my window the coming season change my mode

In my trek across the destiny created by my fate

I’ve come to understand, thank God it’s not too late

So like the leaves which whirl around, onto the moisten ground
I'll use the years and days which are left, in my hope to be profound

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
October 07, 2008

Weeping Tears

2008-10-03T14:45:00.002-06:00

Within the days lies the hours
Within the hours lies the minutes

Within the minutes lies the seconds
Of all the trials and errors we've taken to the limits

For strife exists as transience in the universe of life
Amid the entanglements and desires, when we became man and wife

So I ask can weeping tears be gathered into the palm of one's hands
Much as the dew adorns the grass between the shifting sands

Can one roll back memories which were lost along the way?
Will our lives be spoiled by the amoral decadence of decay?

I hear a distance drummer in the beat of a somber tune
This comes in the dreams I have beneath the waxing moon

It tolls of what has been and what can be again
If only we could find the goodness which lies beyond our sins

Bringing a collective feeling of happiness once shared within our past
When we were young and foolish thinking forever it would last

So pray with me my beloved it's not to late to mend
For the love we've lost and what we seek

Lies just around the bend

Written by Roland R. Ruiz
September 28, 2008

Unforgiving Realm

2008-09-27T05:30:00.003-06:00

Into the surge of an unforgiving realm, we sail towards a goal

Upon an ocean so strange, surreal atop waves so icy cold

On a whaler named Bejeweled, we pray no harm comes our way
As we pass between the narrows, lining the coast of St. John's Bay

Our captain laid course, by the shimmering stars, so many to even confront
While the sails are filled by the billowing winds from a late October front

The tasks engrossing our mind is to catch the majestic whale
For the price of oil is worth the risk, as we ride to the sounds of the gale

Glittering above resides the Northern Lights giving our ship a ghostly hue
In our trek for the behemoths awaiting their fate, having no earthly clue

On the fifth morning out, cries are heard from the lookout, "their she blows"
Whaleboats readied with oars, harpoons, sailors cast off, in the wake of an angry flow

Rowing as never before we race to catch the beast, to match his rhythmic movements
In the blink of an eye blood spurts high, from the sharpness of the blades, all in a matter of moments

As I sit with my shipmates and view this ponderous monster, upon the cresting swells
I hear the slowness in his breath, see the glossy eyes turn upwards, as if in a magical spell

Soon he dies, remorse sets in, to the quietness from the lull
Then the hard work slowly begins, to fill our empty hulls

Written by Roland R. Ruiz
August 23, 2008

Fractured Dreams

2008-08-31T06:58:00.007-06:00

Dedicated: Rachel Kohn

In-between the fractured dreams
Lie all the hopeless schemes
Of the unruly desires created by
The fall of so many extremes

In the silence of the dark
They awake me to what I've done
From the very ones who tried with tears
To give me all their love

This underscores a broken life
Leaving me unable to control my wayward soul
From insane ideas forged by youthful thoughts
From one so brazen and cold

As I approach the sunset of life
An expression of emptiness I feel
For the promises I could not keep
For the failures I've kept sealed

While the stillness of the night
Wakes me to the blindness of the day
I seek forgiveness from the errors
Committed by the judgment of my ways

So I'll ask with sadden heart
In the one who feels my pain
To heal the hurt, clean the heart
Of the sins which still remain

For when I reach the end
Of the long winding road we've shared
I want to be able to softly touch
Caressing the ones who cared

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
August 10, 2008

Life's Embrace

2008-08-22T15:01:00.007-06:00

Romance is like a chameleon
Can be displayed in many ways

Concealing itself so well
Hard to tell, when love has come to stay

For love is like a fleeting dart
As it hurls through life's embrace

It knows when a target is found
Will commence to slow its pace

Once the sharpness of the point
Cuts into one's heart

The cry for pains of loneliness
Begins to slowly fall apart

Thinking you shall walk alone
On a road without a care

Think not of empty thoughts
A soul mate will come to share

So beware of the hurling dart
As it flies through the air

It's meant to end one's lonely soul
As it seeks a set to pair

Written by Roland R. Ruiz
August 13, 2008

Point of No Return

2008-08-15T04:48:00.003-06:00

From the values of life, we all try so hard to learn
There comes to us along the trail, a point of no return

A place of calm unknown by us, which helps to light the way
Along the dusty tracks of time, towards what we must pay

Between the fallen years, lies the destiny of our past
On a road predestined for us to choose or pass

For in the very fiber of our being, obstacles shall we face
Like playing tantalizing games, driving us to disgrace

Known as luck, karma, premonition, names which I recall
But all in all just a slight of hand, to make us take a fall

For faith is the hunter which steers the ship we share
Through the darkness of the fog we'll sail from despair

This helps to steady our course, on a sea of wispy murk
Bringing the release once feared leading to a cautious lurk

Not all will hear the foghorn, which sounds to show the way
But for those who do rest assured, that life will come to stay

For once we've reached the point, where time knows no end
Then we'll know the true serenity, from the loss of total sin

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
August 6, 2008

Last Stairway

2008-08-08T14:49:00.003-06:00

Have you ever been truly alone?
Without a love to share your home
Not even a reason to justify
The loneliness in one's life

There lies inside dreams
Buried deep within the night
Collections of thoughts from long ago
Which brings so much delight?

With only a tinge of tangled sadness
To complete this cycle of strife
Memories roll back to me
Like waves upon a sea

But overall cannot complain
In my travels towards the light
Which luck did grant my youthful soul?
When on that busy byway we merged

Converging on an ocean of oblivion
Our hearts did touch, we smiled
Opening a channel of love
Which led to a beautiful child?

In the finality of total commitment
We'll hold each other hands
As we seek the final horizon
In our search for the promise land

Together we'll pray for grace
To penetrate our souls
With the hope of remaining a set
In the infinity created by love

Crossing the last stairway
We'll cherish what we have known
Together we shall walk
Into the enchantment of total bliss

As we enter the end of our rainbow
Where we'll live forevermore

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
July 18, 2008

God's Domain

2008-08-01T17:25:00.003-06:00

I the God of my domain
I have come to free your pain
All that I do ask of you
Is to feel my love

This is what I'll grant to you
Come and take my willing hand
No more sorrow will come your way
For my Son has paid

Here I am Lord, set me free Lord
I accept the gift you grant so graciously
I am yours Lord, just forgive me
Clean the sin which lies within my heart

Now you'll live in paradise
In my golden home above
Filled with Angels and the stars
To guide your way

No more tears will fall your way
Only love will come to stay
This I promise for one and all
Who'll accept my love

I am your Lord, understand Lord
Your Son paid the ransom for all our sins
By your Son Lord, who gave his life Lord
In return we'll receive eternal grace

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
July 28, 2008

Broken Yesterdays

2008-07-26T05:02:00.003-06:00

If only we could go back in time, and change our yesterdays
What bliss we would again enjoy, as we kiss the storms away

If only we could transposed what was lost beyond the shadows of the dark
Our dreams would match the rainbows painted so vividly, within one's heart

There the beauty of the fantasies gathered, would dance upon the wind
Bringing a special feeling reeling, within the dizziness of our spin

A reminder of what was shared in our hunt for a forgotten path
Engraving a link to wayward memories buried deep inside the past

But time does not stand still my dear, and neither do the storms
As age begins to turn the tides, new thoughts begins to form

Establishing a totally different outlook in the attitudes of life
This brings a disconcerting viewpoint, of what once we knew as strife

In our search for a new horizon, to forget the painful fears
We'll seek a new beginning without the taunts, which caused the tears

So until the broken yesterdays, has released our fleeting faults
We'll remain as distance lovers, lost forever in our thoughts

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
July 11, 2008

Fading Soldiers

2008-07-19T03:08:00.004-06:00

IN MEMORY;
General Douglas MacArthur's farewell speech to Congress
April 19, 1951
"old soldiers never die; they just fade away"

There is a gallant creed existing
Which grow smaller by the day?
They're the soldiers, men and women
Who gave so much our way?

In the service of their country
From lands so foreign and strange
They did what was needed
To save us from tyranny

No matter what the cost
No matter what the lost
In the many battlefields inflicted
Far across the raging seas

The sacrifice they made
Has often been forgotten
What we now enjoy today
Comes from the valor of their deeds

For all these brazen soldiers
Who displayed such bravery?
Remember them for what they gave
As they are laid to eternal rest

They paid dearly in their struggle
For the liberty we now possess
So take a small amount of time
In a prayer for what they did

Remember them with peace and love
As they take their final breath
I'm honored to pay them homage
For the gallantry they displayed

May God bless these aging warriors?
They will never be forgotten
For they gave their very best
For old soldiers never die

They just simply fade away

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
July 8, 2008

The Gift

2008-07-11T18:38:00.004-06:00

I'm here to convey the memories from a long forgotten past
To share a gift which was given and lost from the kindness of a man

Arriving within the spirals in the pattern of my thoughts
Like the twilight bending a rainbow, which enlightens the luster of the breaking sun

Such wisdom he imparted to the children he loved so much
He tried to carve these sentiments to those who felt the strain

A man few remembered, for when he died no one wept
He left a void so empty, unfilled in the loneliness of his life

From the dreams lies his substance in the fantasies of my sleep
It all comes back in the remembrance of what he tried to give

As I approach the shadows in the autumn of my years
The words that I recall I now begin to feel

In the solace of the morning time, peace awakes my heart
A reminder of what was lost and now is found again

So I'll take to my grave all he did impart, in the wisdom he displayed
The epitaph which he left behind, will endear this precious gift

He may have died alone without tears to bid farewell
But he will be remembered for I have become a better man

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
July 1, 2008

Distant Drummer

2008-07-03T16:12:00.007-06:00

Dedicated: Those who hear the music..........

I hear a distant drummer in the beat of a somber tune
Which came in the lyrics of life, since birth it's played a song

Across a wooden bridge, came a gift given to me
Arriving when I least expected, from one so high above

It shares a spot so deep inside the rapture of my being
As if it's been a part of me, only now I begin to feel

For I've tasted the sweet desires existing within my dreams
Which resides within a vibrant rainbow, along the waters edge

As I age towards the unknown, there's so much I want to impart
In the imagery which reverts to me, in my remaining days

So I'll share what comes my way, to those who hear the music
Hoping my words brings peace of mind, in the message I wish to convey

To those who are blessed in hearing
The melody vibrating within one's heart

I pray that you will feel the joy
Which has grown deeply between my soul

I'll continue to relay my thoughts to you
Pleading you will do the same

In our travels to find a wooden bridge
And the sounds of a distant drummer

Seeking the one who gave to us, the glory of his love
Along with the gift we share, which brings the saving grace

We'll march to the cadence of a happy tune
Inside his royal palace, forever and evermore

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
June 21, 2008

Unimaginable

2008-06-27T20:31:00.004-06:00

Beyond the cosmos of the known galaxies
In the universe we call home

Lies the miracle by the hands of God
In the gift he gives to all

We feel this in every breath we take
From the treasure we call life

We see this in every vista
As the sun moves across the sky

From the glorious splendor of his love
He grants to each of us

Only foreshadows what's in store
To those who truly believe

In the world he created
By his everlasting love

Bought by the death of his begotten son
So our hearts could be cleansed of sin

Thus bestowing the miracle of salvation
Which awaits his flock, beyond the waning stars?

Where the heavenly Father and the Son
Will rule upon their throne

To reign the unimaginable, forever
In a palace we pray will be our home

Is all we can ask for, all we can imagine?
Surrounded by his glory, in his kingdom forevermore

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
March 28, 2008

The Spiral

2008-06-04T00:34:00.003-06:00

Within the shadow of the years
Looms the memories of all my fears

Which come in the dreams I have each night?
Leaving me unable to resist the futile attempts to slight

As I fall into the circle of unrelenting love
I hope of finding a way to convey an impression of

The many battles inflected, in the indifference of a cause
Culminating in what was won and lost, in a whirlwind of applause

So in the fantasies we have shared, we'll adjust for separate ways
Which will lead to a new horizon as we leave our yesterdays?

In this parting thought, I will entrust before I go
I ask for your forgiveness for the feelings I could not show

And if you have within you a moment to reflect
Remember all we totaled in the time we did connect

For this shall live beyond us in the blood line we did create
Our daughters will always love us, no matter what the fate

As we come to an end of a spiral, we'll say our final goodbyes
Turning towards a new beginning, in the windmill of our minds

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
June 1, 2008

Wings of Dove

2008-05-23T22:00:00.005-06:00

There is a canyon of no regret, which exists within ourselves

It takes affect when problems occur, between our drifting shell

Thus creating a vacuum of despair, which dwells inside our hearts?
Which comes in wayward thoughts, when we think its time to part

Tasting the memories of that first kiss, in a match from heaven above
Is worth the effort to sort this out, to save our fading love

Often time is what we need to soothe our painful hurts
Bringing a type of healing, to erase the lasting marks

So please help me find the pieces, we’ve lost along the way
To rebound to the way it used to be, in the remaining days

For we have known the feelings of unrelenting love
It awaits for us to find again, between the wings of doves

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
May 23, 2008

Mortal Fears

2008-05-23T15:37:00.003-06:00

Can a river of deception be a prelude to a dream?
As we sleep with eyes wide open, hoping it's not a scheme

Wishing to catch a glimmer, from the brilliance of your eyes
I lean to kiss your moisten lips, as the moon begins to rise

In the twilight of the dew, lies sweet memories I hold for you
Which becalms a restless heart, of a stranger I once knew?

We've shared so much together, in the volume of our years
I feel as if our love has grown, beyond our mortal fears

For in the time God grants to us, I'll make this solemn oath
To cherish each second given, for the thoughts you hold so close

So take my hand, hold me tight, and never look behind
For the destiny of the new eternity, is there for us to find

Written by: Roland R. Ruiz
May 14, 2008